Thursday, January 24, 2008
Goodness, it's been so long since I last sat on my sofa for so long. Hahaha. The previous two weeks were insane. Trying to get accustomed to working lifestyle is difficult enough. And there were bro's weddings.
The first one in KL was not bad, but not the food. I think the food is not worth the price. And we went genting for a short while on that Sunday as well. Super casino place and I really think it's a very fengshui place. As in the fengshui for the casino is so "strong". Erm bad explanation, in exact is when we went into the casino we felt the strange feeling. Ahh yes to explain it correctly, the aura in the casino is so strong. Do you call it aura?? hahahaha I'm gibberish again.
Then this one in Singapore. Well.. I think I'm not pretty enough on that day. Should have swapped the clothes around. Hai. I look so not glam for the Singapore wedding. And what' worse, one of Jeanie's sisters wears the same dress!! Exact ok. Darn it.
But I love the food at Fullerton. I mean, well you pay for the price. Oh well.
As for work.. To make it sound nicer I was offered a job with them 1 week into the job. But in actual fact is because I have to stay with them for the next half year and they need people to take over some empty role and I am the only one available. To get another person in will run the risk of the person leaving in a few months which they don't want. And they kindda make me do a verbal promise to stay for another half a year. But then it's only a contract job. Definitely, pay is not high, little benefits and sorts. Why did I go for it? I asked myself alot of times. I really think the only reason is because of the things they promised that I will learn. I do hope. Sup say she will let me take over the recruitment of a certain area of EM. I really hope so.
And what's worse, they work OT EVERYDAY. My goodness gracious me. I've already told myself, I will only work for OT when I can't meet deadlines. That's it. They seem to love doing OT. Haha. I don't know. Really, I'm just secretly wishing that the low paying and OT in the future will be paid off with the experience. I kept telling myself that it's only a year compared to my lnog lnog working years in the future. Ahhhh I'm having doubts again.
Nevermind. It's not that glam to be offered, really. 'Cause I'm not a perm worker. Alot of reasons. Hai.
'Nuff of that. Oh, I saw this incident on MRT that day. There was this probably seven or eight month pregnant lady standing. And she was standing right in front of those seated and you know what?? They all just ignored. OH MY. I couldn't believe it, ok. I mean don't know even see that it's very difficult for pregnant ladies to stand for a long period of time? Ok probably you are a guy you don't care, but think, would you want your wife, mother, loved ones to be treated the same way?? And for the ladies even more so! How could you! I can't believe. Gosh. Think of others, please.
And I was reading Jodi Picoult's Vanishing Acts a while ago, and I teared. I was reading the part where the guy lead was explaining how much the female lead mean to him. Oh goodness it was so real and touching. Hahaha.
It's like.. Not that you found the right person or what, but the person has been with you for so long you cannot even imagine life without the person. This doesn't apply only to your partner, but your loved ones on the whole. I can't imagine my life without my family. And this is why I always pray that they don't go before me. I rather be the first one to go. But this is selfish too, 'cause they wouldn't want to face me going as well. Quite a solemn issue but it's quite meaningful, as in the book. I love all Picoult's books. But there's this problem with me where I will be so "into" the story that I lose myself. I hope not this time round.
And bout this, I think it's really when you enter a new stage in your life that you realise how impt your loved ones are. That day I was so tired. Very very tired of work and my life. I couldnt reconcile the things that I'm doing and what I want to do in the future. The unknown period. So it was quite a low period for me. Then that night I met William for dinner. I was wondering around Vivo 'cause I don't wanna work late at office, then when he came quite some time later, I wasn't angry with him, I simply smiled. So elated to see him. That things don't seem that bad. It's those kind of feeling..
Hehe yeah meeting they all tmr. Now that you are working.. You've realised that it's so important to meet up with everyone. Really. Working makes me feel that I'm missing out alot of things. I can't stand the part where I must sleep before 1230 everynight. I tried not sleeping so much. But it didn't work out 'cause I ended up havnt a bad day the next day.
And I was stupid enough to not send in the form for processing my salary. Darn. No money for the first month. STUPID. No money for CNY!!! DAAARN!
crOwn_clOvera 1/24/2008 10:48:00 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I miss the horses. I wanna see Chester and JP and Mistof and Ruby and they all. I miss grooming them. Probably I will go back soon. But work's really tiring and there are so much things to do. Argh..
crOwn_clOvera 1/15/2008 12:06:00 AM
Monday, January 14, 2008
Woah I really disappeared for like a week plus. Was really tired for this whole of last week and time passed really fast.
Work was quite alright. Mundane. The only appropriate word.
I was told to do the usual stuff.. printing, photocopying, etc. Some nice things are like being part of the orientation team for the new hires and etc. I have to say that I wasn't free for more than 15mins for the whole of last week so it's quite a busy week.
But then again. I can't. I'm not suited for this job. Probably this conclusion came too early you might think but I can foresee the things that I will be doing if I continue. It will not be what I want. I'm a person who wants results and recognition. I want to do things fast and accurate. I want instructions to do given clearly etc. The culture there was just different from my ideal. Probably I should change what I wish for to the reality. But I guess I still have the luxury to imagine. But then again to stay in this job for 6mths kindda terrifies me. Day in day out I've been trying to talk to them and make friends with everyone in the department, but the thing is, some of them are so aloof that I frightens me. And I'm afraid of over doing the big-smiley-face thing that gives others the impression that I'm bimbotic. I don't know how to look capable and yet easy to talk to. Right I know, it takes time. In anyhow, work is alright.
On the happier side, Gor's wedding was quite fun. I took almost 2.5 hrs to do my hair and my makeup. Enjoyed it hell lots. Cause I watched alot of youtube videos with how to draw smokey eyes and how to do hair buns sort of vids and I was afraid I couldnt produce what I want. Thankfully, I'm quite satisfied with the results. Hehehe.
I think I should go sleep soon. But I need to bath first I think. Hahaha it's 12am. Now I've finally understand why people say working ain't fun at all. Life's still restricted cause you need to sleep alot. Probably I will try to get accustom to this and try to sleep later. Adjust my biological clock more. I don't know. I feel so in need of time for myself. Probably too much of nua time in the past that I'm missing them alot now. Hahahah.
I feel so dumb-ified at work by doing those stuff. But oh well, everyone needs to start somewhere. Perhaps I should change my mindset.
crOwn_clOvera 1/14/2008 11:11:00 PM
