The Carousels

Thursday, February 24, 2005

basically everyone who chatted with me noe im gooogoo gaga over these 2 strawberries..so pretty!!!lalala..haha..i dun eat them..coz my mama told me they are sour..haha..but they are soo PrettY!!gosh..so pretty..okie they dun look as pretty here coz they are shy..dun wanna let u see their real self..lalala

crOwn_clOvera 2/24/2005 05:41:00 PM

uh i wanted to stop there..but i juz feel lik typing more..though i hav completely no idea wat i wanna type about..erm...welll wat can i talk abt..oh im meeting ying n wen tmr!haha..muz force them to teach me french..or mayb coax them..n ying chi ruan bu chi ying..haha..but wat shld we eat tmr??erm i dun mind ex or cheap...but..hmm..i got any preferences?no...i juz wanna drink mos burger milk tea..damn nice..i tell u ar..ytday i went to watch hide n seek..oh a nice show..this ltr.. i wanted to drink milk tea..n my dear bf dunno y go n buy those bubble tea milk tea when he himself oso lik mos burger one..hai...n wat's worse??that darn bubble tea milk tea is freaking 5 bucks...n with that money u can buy 2 large mos burger milk tea..ddrink until u lao sai..darn...haha nvm...

ya hide n seek is nice..i tot is horror..but it isnt..it's more of erm pyschopath show..n the psychopath is a psychologist..gosh will i bcome one??i mean a psychopath..i think i will..coz my brain is thking strangely these few days..i will think am i living in reality??is all the things that i perceived real??or are they juz part of a long dream of mine??or perhaps im juz hallucinating..ya those kind...hai read too much n think too much..shldnt tink so much..will kill myslef if i cont..

im freezing to death

oh gor is going back to auzz tmr..ya ya tmr..dun tihnk im sending him off..ya i rather stay at hm n slp..to think that day when he flew for auzz i was soooo sad n crying n everything..haha..numb..mayb

wat else happened?i dunno...i feel im getting cranky and egoistic..all self centered and narrow-minded..i dunno y...perhaps im used to living in my own world..n i dun wan others to distort it...it's not that bad actually to live in my own world...

uhhhhh im lose the drive to write le
taaa

crOwn_clOvera 2/24/2005 04:50:00 PM

okie..it's been so long since i had a proper entry...been lazy..n dun feel lik blogging..n was sick..juz hate it..the weather..n the ppl ard me all sick..den in the end i passed the virus to sis n mum..

erm...it dated back long ago since i had a proper entry..oh i think it was when daddy was hospitalized...hai poor daddy..but he's fine now..daddy was in so much pain that day...hmm n ya THAT day was 3 wks back...he tot it was juz stomach ache..but in the end it turned out to b a bad ulcer in the duodenum (somewhere v near stomach) that burst..doc said normally ulcers dun burst..but dunno y daddy's burst..n he was in quite critical condition the fateful day three weeks back..n the darn it A&E was so F***ing slow...in the end they realised daddy was a serious case n whoosH!he was on his way to OT le..we went at ard 12plus..n only got to see the first doc at 3plus..den whoosh..daddy was in HDU(high dependency unit) at lik erm 5plus..haha..but all was fine..but he was in sooo much pain that time..i was scolding n swaering when i realised A&E had to wait tat long..den was in hospital til 2 days b4 cny...n he was all well n back for new yr...doc said it was most prob due to smoking..n so daddy quit smoking..happy..hee

erm den den.....den new yr i won $64 bucks..but i gave the money to daddy..coz gor said shld give daddy as a form of ang bao to wish him health..hee..den erm erm..lik tat la..last wk was exmas n presentaiton wk..n i juz got to noe my psycho mcq marks..i got 39 out of 50 only...darn..i tot i will do better...well nvm..i will strive harder..yeah..it's okie rite?right..i will strive harder..juz dun get it..y am i so dumb..coz i always cant study smart...i tried studying hard..but smart nv came to me..n me n ying juz dun get it y..well perhaps im not clever enough..nv try lor..wat else can b done...

n i had lik shopping spreeee..sorta..but im tired n broke...spent a little too much liao...so stop for a few weeks..

oh ya!n i had my first ever chance of driving ytday..erm..fun..exciting..scary..ya..tmr gonna have another one..well okie la..but i think im bad at roads i guesss..coz im scared that i will knock into anything..n when the bus zoom past, OMG it's so scary..lalala nvm...

n i wonder whens my survey pay coming..mayb they run away le i oso dunno...but anyhow..i havnt been doing much work this wk...tooooo slack...uh i was saying i would nv b lik ying so hardworking..cant for me..cant for wen too i guess..haha..will push myself la..will do it...juz 7 more wks to endure...n it's total freedom for 4mths...well not really..gotta work n slog..if i can..lalala

oh ya..n my AS mates juz told us this blog by some disgusting freak.. dickchan.blogspot.com
oh gosh..try readin the first few para..he's totally disgusting yucky pervert...i juz dun get it y some guys are so pervert..hello???looking gives them pleasure???dun get it totally..hai some stupid thing...i wun care...if u are in the mood where u ate alot n feel lik having the bullimic illness, den go n read wat he said...den mayb u will puke out..or mayb u wun..coz im all too conservative n narrowminded..u will think it's normal..fine with me..i dun think it is..gosh
darn them

ya i wasted alot of "saliva" crapping...uh huh..wat else..oh ya..in case u are still in the blur-dom..hey ppl charles is finally attached la..hahahaah..erm tm, cannot call him hum chim peng already..hee joking...but treat her well alright..some guys juz dun treat their gf well..

oh no..the recent trend is gf dun treat their bf well..wah there's a few i noe..pss im one of them..hahahaa..but well..no one noes..haha..so dun care?no im talking gibberish..coz i havnt had enough slp..n im freaking freezing cold in this room..all alone...coz i have a house that i dun wanna go back to..no no im not against anyone..but i juz dun feel lik..going hm will mean slacking...welll im slacking now too but it's diff..okie n i havnt had lunch...lazy to go down get la..n can u imagine someone as lazy as me who dun even wan to walk to the toilet to pee?okie no no it's bcoz all alone i cant leave my things lying ard here..not good...

oh ya n some girl from SMU office juz emailed me n told me to volunteer to go back to PJ to man the booth on the day when the results are out coz the JCs wan ppl to go back to talk to their students..uh huh n im going back PJ le..dunno..may not b afterall coz i may hav lessons..but they will pay me $15 if i go...better than nothing..juz sit there wait for ppl to ask me qns..n get $15 for abt 2-3hrs..okie la..a form of slacking..im earning money okie...hahaha

crOwn_clOvera 2/24/2005 04:12:00 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

UH..everyone!!oh i mean all girls!!
haha
there's sale at M)phosis at 50 to 70%!
n there's sale at Osmose at 50% storewide!!
n Marina Square is closing for renovation so almost all shops are on sale..like G2000, URS, 2 degrees, erm...BIFC etc la..got sale la..so im crazy la..haha..ytday was good...i bgt 1 skirt 2 top n 1 pair of shoes..for ard 50bucks only??!!cheap cheap..hahahha..feel lik going G2k sia..coz i feel lik buyin more shirts for presentation..1 black 1 white not enough rite..hee..c how la..but im so happy..coz juz nice all half term exams n presentations end liao so i can relax a while..yeah...must relax so that i can go tat mile in next 7 wks..hai hai..
lalala
sale sale sale
anymore sale?oh ya Veil oso sale..anyway juz walk lik taka, wisma, paragon u will see alot of sale liao la..i've yet to go c heerens have or not..hee..
lalala

crOwn_clOvera 2/19/2005 10:11:00 AM

Monday, February 14, 2005

uh i had debate today..quite nice..it wasnt as bad as i tot..i tot i would be shivering like crazy and stammer..but i was quite alright juz tat i was going way too fast..so gotta learn to be articualte and slow down..hee..guess i lik talking in front of the class more n more..or mayb im juz more comfortable with it already..i guess u will slowly get used to it eventually..tip is tat u gotta noe ur stuff..there was once i said a few words in front of a whole crowd..but i stammered n blah..coz i din noe wat to say n wasnt prepared at all..so very imptly..i gotta be prepared..juz needa noe wat u wanna say..lik noe what's ur nxt line..den when u talk u can look at the audience and say the nxt line n sorts..quite fun la..haha

i seriously dun lik that particular grp im in..okie i will not say which..although none of them noe this blog..but i juz dun wanna say..let's call that person ambikala..ambi thinks ambi is so clever?lik ambi is doing everything..dunno..juz dun lik ambi..blah...blahhhhh

i wonder how's tm..mayb i will meet her on the streets ltr..hahaha..

i gotta tell myself to do wat im suppose to..im not really setting correct priorities..hai..will try harder..yeah..

i got nothing else to say..juz shuttup

crOwn_clOvera 2/14/2005 07:14:00 PM

basically u can see that im trying to get the post for son out of the way
haha
no!
im juz plain bored now
oh ya
i won SIXTY FOUR bucks during cny
yeah!but gave it to dad as an ang bao to bao ping an..
daddy's fine now..hee..
but he seems to be having the crave for that darn stick..
oh well he will get over it..
yes
daddy's words: a person shld nv fall sick, being sick is so scary
and yes i agree fully

crOwn_clOvera 2/14/2005 09:59:00 AM

meow

alo alo
happy v day to everyone

im bleh blah bloh
oh it's "first" day of sch for me havnt been in sch for 10 days..bloop

im really wondering..y is it tat im always like tat
im willin to prepare for exams..definitely
but whenever it nears i will get cold feet and find excuses for myself not to study for it.
in the end i always screw it up
where's the enthu me??
or perhaps there wasnt one at all
but i needa find a way to get my ass cracking
darn
ya ya
be happy
happy everyone :D

crOwn_clOvera 2/14/2005 09:56:00 AM

Sunday, February 06, 2005

to you noe who u r:
stop going round in circles..u noe tat this doesnt help..if it's not meant to be means it's not meant to be..if u are persistent den woo her back..if not juz let it go..holding on to it and boozing is NOT GOING TO HELP..she wun come back to u even if u cont to do this..rem i said b4 she will find some1 better and u will too?yes both of u will..coz this is juz not meant to be as wat it seems now..perhaps years ltr things will change but NOTHING will change now..if u cont to think y is she lik tat she still wun come back..there are other things in life tat are more impt than thinking y did she do tat..believe me..u noe wat happened to me..cherish wat u hav ard u..if she chooses not to hav her heart at ur place den there is no pt clingin on..in the end u will only be the one hurt both mentally and physically..

i noe this is very harsh but i tried the soft way and it's not working..i juz wanna say my piece..if u are unhappy with this u can jolly well forget abt it or not to visit my blog ever again..but i tell u this..going back and think wat happened in the past isnt going to change any bit of ur future coz it's in history. history means it's over means what you can do now is to learn from it and try not to make the same mistakes..

you will have a better life if u move on i am very very sure..everyone wans the old u back..so make urslef happy make everyone happy (including her) by getting on with ur life..

i juz dun wanna write wat happened here..im not really afraid of u guys noeing it..but i dunno..writing it down here seems to invade my privacy alot..coz i dunno who reads it?n i dun wan wrong impressions that im acting pitiful..suck it..if life was better than schooling..schooling is so damn knn coz u gotta make sure u study..i wish i can get out of this life at least i will be able to do my things w/o t hinking abt how much i havnt read and revise..
see i feeel like writing f*** again..yeah i shldnt..okie..

crOwn_clOvera 2/06/2005 01:59:00 AM

Friday, February 04, 2005

i think i shldnt say fuck..amyb it's bcoz i said this that's y it happens..mayb it's some retributive thing..ying rite? i dunno..but..nvm..
hee

*Always look on the bright side of life**
*do do**
*do do do do do do**

crOwn_clOvera 2/04/2005 03:00:00 PM

*Thank God**

crOwn_clOvera 2/04/2005 03:00:00 PM

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

fuck
y dun they juz understnad. yes im in bad mood. okie no im not in bad mood but im super stressed. i hav 2 exams in less than 2 wks time n i havnt even start studying. n i hav to finish all the fucking projects before i can start my revision. i juz dun fucking know y muz we do all those shit in my projs. n when i reach hm, i juz dun wanna talk AT ALL. or at least to the minimum. but she will keep asking and den when i say aiyah dunno la she will say im being attitude n IM WRONG. hey hello??i told u i wanna skip my lesson tmr coz i dread the long darn tedious journey to sch and most imptly, that lesson is redundant. n u told me everything there is a price to pay? fuck?i cant even hav the choice to stay at hm????wat??u say i cant study at hm???so who is it that always come to my table n say eh dinner eat wat. eh go bank with me. eh go pass things to ah ma with me. eh this eh that. so meaning im not concentrating??im not trying to say that i dun wan u to say that to me. i am definitely fine with that. i noe everyone needs to talk..i noe it's nice to talk to u. but fuck, can u see the pt?i stay at hm is good for both u n me! although i study at slower pace at hm, but if i use the time i spent travelling that is like fucking 1 hr to study, i will effectively be studying at the same rate!n how do u fucking noe i DO study at sch??do u noe i spent my time downloading songs n talking on msn??u dun even noe!how can u juz conclude that i do study better in sch???cant u juz treat me like an adult. i noe what i am doing and i WILL pay for wat i decide to do!if i cant study den i pay by getting low grades alright!so u care abt me getting low grades n cant be proud of me in front of relativess????fuck
i noe i said fuck alot alot of times. but i juz needa say it out or else i will juz scold fuck to the next person who talks to me.
n fuck it i tel u, i forgot to hand in my sociology journal n i havnt do my AS. im juz fucking screwed up by all those proj n more porj meetings. ineffective, slow, time consuming. although the ppl are fun but at this pt of time when i cant even finish my things if GOD gives me 10 days a week. im juz fucking pissed.

okie im done with my venting.
im juz tired n sick..hav u ever tot?paper chase is all abt this??y cant we do something n learn something tat will aid us in the future?okie mayb BGS will help a little..bare minimum..but the fucking CT is like shit.hello how the hell do ppl LEARN to be creative??so it's LEARNT???fuck.
fucking waste of time to do CT
u juz try to do to her needs rather than learning something.
fuck

crOwn_clOvera 2/02/2005 10:31:00 PM