The Carousels

Monday, August 30, 2004

I hate the world today, your so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you, but you look at me like
Maybe I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet,
yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused, I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think you've got me figured out
The season is already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When your hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

crOwn_clOvera 8/30/2004 10:33:00 PM

Sunday, August 29, 2004

hmm juz read caiying's blog..yea girl..agree totally..
it's juz those kind of "it's been so long since we did this" feelin..coz in e past in pj we wud study together or sorts..n ytday..we studied at starbucks..yea we din really study alot..but i did enjoy myself..so it's okie rite?rite
once a while wun harm =)

spent the whole afternoon at hv starbucks..yeah!!!i had my fill of mocha frap!!!la la la
n i tried to study my psyc there..i did of coz..though not a lot..but im really fallin in love with psyc..it's juz so wonderful coz u wil noe more bout urself lik 'y do i feel hungry?' n 'why do i sleep n dream?'..though psyc is basically a science based on experimental results..but it's still fun..but im wondering..y do ppl juz so sure that the researchers are correct??hmm...haha

den tze may charles n jack joined us for dinner..y??y??y is sushi tei so packed????darn..nvm wil hav some other chance..yesh..haha
it's been so long since i saw tm..same old her..determined to do wat she wans..she's da woman..but still..i dun agree with her going for that overseas trip..it's way to dangerous..i feel it's not the correct age to go?we are still growin n learning bout the real world..i dunno..plus every min tat she's away her parents wil b worried 'non-stop'..im juz not tat wei3 da4(magnanimous?)
while for that charles boy..he changed alot..but i seriously dun get it y was he so high at pool la..talkin bout some nonsensical things like y play pool n his hands r still on the cue???haha but im glad..glad to c ppl ard me happy..it's good to talk to him again like b4..n if i've e chance i shld really tell him stop wearing specs le!!haha..he looks smarter n more shuai in contacts la..haa..well im not being biased or wat..coz SHUWEN agrees with me in this case..haa..but hogging up place thing im stil against it..coz it's juz wrong..yes i noe u wanna c how nus changes..but some ppl dun even hav e chance to feel it?some ppl had to bear the pain of receiving rejection letter?sorry for being agitated ytday rgdin this..but im juz voicin out my views..
n charles is going to learn psyc?i oso dunno wat made him wanna borrow books frm lib on psyc..but great!!i've more ppl to talk to bout psyc..haa..

to wen n ying:can we meet more times like tat??haha..dunno..i juz miss that kind of feeling..sittin together with u 2 den study, talk cock..talk bout cute guys in ur sch n mine..haha
im quite lost now coz shuwen ar..u guessed correctly leh..haha got to know it last nite when i chatted with david..die die..but nvm la..

ying:haha im not on the look out at times..im on the look out all the time too!haha..lookin out wun harm u at all rite?haha
n my mum is not the best in the wide world k..she juz pisses me off all the time..but i think her menopause really coming..ah bo she wun b so crazy over small things..but i dun really care la..im gettin very unappreciative

to kok: i dunno wil u b able to c this in time..but nxt wk im rather packed leh..can we postpone it til near ur bday??hee
perhaps by den we wil hav more time to plan n plus, we could talk about it during our philips carnival sale rite??haha..oh ya rina told me she wil call me when e time comes..so wait for my call la..haha..n i think ur side mag they all din get the job rite?i think HR damn sai..coz they only call guys..i noe tony was informed n zhen's fren(guy) was oso called for interview...darn HR..waste my time to help them ask ard..

crOwn_clOvera 8/29/2004 10:33:00 PM

went holland v!!!!!!
im so happy
so so so happy
coz i really really enjoyed myself today
thanks caiying n shuwen =)
so shuai *_* (mesmerised)
hee

aiyah now not free update some other day hee

crOwn_clOvera 8/29/2004 01:14:00 AM

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

ya la went to find the stupid dance studio high n low today..n den uncle security guard tel u today no lesson..even uncle noe lor n we dunno...argh..n e worse tihg is e dance studio is at raffles annex there lor..where tat time e night walk n that thinghappened..so me siew hui n yi cui were scared..but yi cui v gd..she was tellin us to talk n walk loudly..ya..haha

den went pool club thing today..guess it's kindda fun n not fun too..coz rebecca is backing out..den im all alone la..it's not really gd to b in a cca alone i realised..so i dunno..miranda is there but i dunno her well..c how la..if nxt few wks go le n i dun lik den quit lor..plus i dun wan any commitment...
so now i hav bodyworks claz, pool club n waiting for extremist's activities..oh ya n tri touch too..it's a comm service club la..join for fun only..i thinkin of joinin more..i think i'l join fencing nxt yr..this yr no money to go le..haha..

well im not tat of a loner afterall..im still scared of being alone?i've yi cui n siew hui for bodyworks..pool there's rebecca..den tri touch there's yi shan n david..

i think i need some thing to get myself moving..i dunno..juz feel there's sth wrong w me..some part of me is wrong..mayb my nerves r having prob?mayb i need morphine,ACh,pephernomine?hope i din spell wrongly..haha..psychology is really makin my days man..though it's v theory..but it's interesting..

quote from psychology prof **u do not love with all your heart, coz ur heart only noes how to pump. u love with your BRAIN**
(i've yet to memorise with part of the brain controls ur emotions..but once i do it will update..hahaha)

))) zhe yi miao wo ku le ((( luo zhi xiang

crOwn_clOvera 8/25/2004 11:52:00 PM

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

gosh i din blog for a few days n i've lost momentum to write le..dunno wat to write..

hmm been bz i guess..sorta..last nite siew hui stayed over..den talked alot..n we realised we got common things towards falling..haha..it's lik we crushes easily?okie let's not go into details.. =)

oh ya she stayed over coz her laptop stil cannot make it..so i reformat it for her..i tot it was okie le..but today she told me infected lotsa virus when online..well definitely one mah coz it happens to me n some of my frens..ya..but she say now keeps hanging n sorts..wah i cannot le..so i told her to bring it to sch to repair..im not tat pro aferall..hahaha
but im selfish la..coz i really needa spend more time in my hmwk le..if i go n help her den i cant finish my work le..conclusion:im selfish
but seriously,i dunno wat else i can do to help le

life's been the same im wondering wil it change::
seminars
joke abt cute guys with siew hui n yi shan, sometimes others
walk alone
think abt nothing at all
eat
rush for ltb meetings
slp
oh ya of coz,do hmwk

but i quite lik this lifestyle now..oh sorry ar, jack.. fang ni fei ji again..
n ltb's using alot of my time..though i lik it alot coz my grp is really fun..haha gd gd..but i guess to stay "alive" in smu, i needa speak up..yes i can speak up, but i ALWAZ for goodness sake, spout nonsense. y???

yup im learning to love my sch life now..uni life is really fun..but it's hard to make true frens though..coz im basically some1 who dun lik to start conversation..i can maintain one but dun like to start..so ya loner sometimes..but it's okie..soetimes when i see some ppl need them to walk out of sch with them kindda..ermm ya..nvm..haha

ya i guess buo-ing guys is fun but not liking or anything further than tat..coz it will lose all the fun-ness..yeah u get it?i betta tel myself this..i havta drill this into my mind..haha

conclusion: my mind is v luan now i cant think str y??

ting zhe ))) missing you by energy

crOwn_clOvera 8/24/2004 11:48:00 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2004

she's da best man!!well though she lost today, but i think her performance is MUCH betta den that korean woman...darn her..she win by luck only..look at e way li jia wei plays lor..she's definitely betta in terms of skills..mayb a lil too gan jiong le..but she's really hen li hai!! jia you!! hee

i stayed hm e whole day eh..yeah..well finished a lil la..finished my stats?oops that doesnt seem alot..haha..im suppose to finish 40pages for psyc, abt 60pages of ltb, n bout 20 pages of comm tmr..hmm hmm hmm..i'll die there tmr

hahhaahahahahaha i tel u ar...my sis's bf juz booked in ytday...lalalala no one to bicker with me le!!yesh!!haha..but den sad for him la coz he wans to b with my sis every min those kind?hee but this is gd la at least it's very obvious tat he cherishes my sista alot alot...dotes on my sis..takes gd care of my sis...isnt this great??that's how a bf shld b..yesh la
haha
arhh u c im finally pro my sis's bf le..for once..hahaha
but i wil stil bicker with him when i c him
but that wil b lik mayb 2 wks later?
dunno la i dun really care

crOwn_clOvera 8/21/2004 10:40:00 PM

Friday, August 20, 2004

ya la no pool today..coz last min needa go sch for ltb prob meeting..den it's lik meeting at 12pm at foodhaven..n again..im late..hee..for bout 5 mins la..
hmm quite fun ar my ltb grp..coz got 2 jokers..den the ppl all quite on..but again im pin-point by some guy called david la..say i lame n sorts la..aft tat rebecca asked him y he alwaz pin-point me..c la everyone can c he pin-pointin me..haha but for fun only la..he's oso one of those tat i think not bad ones..well this feelin is gd..juz buo n buo..well life's bout this rite??dun get so serious!!at least for now..hee
hmm i kindda kept quiet thru out ltb though i shldnt coz in ltb, we shld speak up alot..but i juz felt tired these days..i alwaz feel v tired v tired..mayb im sick..mentally and physically..im abusing myself too much..needa slp earlier..

but today cant slp early la..coz aft ltb meeting i had to rush hm by cab..coz da yi zhang's mother passed away n mum n dad had to go into muar today for the funeral..so they wan me in fac b4 2pm..but in e end e meeting ended at 330..i cant even go pool..but it was raining so heavily n i was tired so took cab to siew hui's hse to fetch her den went back fac..sorry kok, mag n ah shi k..next time..next time..if mon u ppl free den play with me n jack n mayb siew la..though i m stil lazy to go..but i still havta go..coz jack alwaz ask me n i alwaz got sth on..feel bad la..

siew's laptop got prob so she brgt it to fac den i c can help her or not lor..den she use mine..coz in smu ar..u really need to use internet extensively..i din check my mail half a day n there'r 21 mails?n if u din clear in time it wil b full n closed..n u may miss prof's emails this way n die..
the thing is aft installing almost everything for siew we realised her usb port got prob..cant detect anything..tried for lik 2hrs but to no avail..gave up eventually coz it's 10pm le?but she juz told me she went hm plugged in her broadband can le..but is aft trying a few times..i think is really her usb port spoil la..coz gor say usb port no need to install one..n me n her tried to install it for 2hrs but cant get anything..
im so shagged now..coz face e comp for 5hrs juz now..n is those not for fun one..at least if u tel me to write blog for 5hrs i stil can la..haha siao write blog for 5hrs i think tat'll b a thesis x 100times le..but at least siew's comp is okie le..ytday she cant eve n go desktop..imagine wkend dun hav laptop..hmwk all jammed up n cant read mails lor..die

n guess wat??after living in this hse for bout 7yrs, i juz got to know tat my estate is call lakeside grove la..i really din noe tat lor..there isnt a sign or wat..n pa ma nv tel me..haha

hey ppl really la u ppl shld really quit ur sch n come smu!!it's has so much interesting profs, lects r mostly non-boring..u learn new concepts lik teambuilding n leadership, competencies n strategies! okie this sound sucky but think in another way..u learn in depth wat is team building actually..if u dun go thru this course ur concept of teambuilding is juz there there only..i tot these courses were retarded..but it's not!u learn things that other schs wun teach..only smu n some US uni has these courses..n smu is such a small community, in the end u wil get to know ppl, mayb personally la..u c nus is so big..so mayb u can noe ur own fac one only??haha im against nus for ur info..not against but hmm...anti?i dunno..guess i juz hate the hype about tat sch tat it's the best uni ard n if u get into it ur clever n wat heck..when i told my relatives with pride tat im in smu..they seem lik "chey not nus dun seem v clever eh" look..i wun b anti ntu though coz thru out jc life i had dreamed to go there..moreover, most of my buds r there..haha..nus oso got buds there la but i've been against tat sch from god noes when so pardon me eh..hee

to kok>> hey u wanna meet up with other philip colleagues on chris's bday or some day near that date?celebrate for her lor den plus lik ktv or sth..hee..her bday is on 28 aug ar..n sorry ar today cant meet u ppl.. ;P fill me up bout ytday some other day k?

to ying>> i finally get ur meaning of "this is a blog. it doesnt necessarily reflect myself. it only reflects myself at the moment that im writing."
yesh finally get it aft i hav a blog myself..but i still wanna meet u n ar wen la..i miss times at hv starbucks..n we need stress relievers like chilling out at starbucks rite??on e comfy sofa njoying mocha frap..oOooOoo...dun u miss those times..hahahhaahaha
*njoy yourself all u can at CAC ball*
(PS.buo more guys la den get their no den, hee hee hee. yeah?)

crOwn_clOvera 8/20/2004 11:22:00 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2004

You are Silver Fawn, who tends to give an impression of being difficult to grasp what you really mean.
People find it hard to know what you think and what you like, no matter how often and how much they talk to you.
Your mysterious atmosphere makes you look like a cold hearted woman, but all the more, you stand for femininity.
You are composed of both natural caution against men and passion for your own life.
A feudalistic ideas and passion for artistic things exist along side each other inside you, and are kept in good balance.
You are full of fantasist ideas, and tends to be rather dreamy sort of person.
Nevertheless, your attitude towards life is extremely steady.
You are not interested in real life, and you don't have many relationships.
You can show astonishing vital power when it comes to long term businesses.
But you tend to withdraw into your shell, and be unable to bring out the trust you have among other people.
You should try and mingle more often with others.
Although you are very unique and have the mysterious atmosphere around you, you tend to get interested in natural and ordinary things.
You should create an environment at home, where you could make use of your personal interest and your life mission.
After getting married, you will lead a steady life.
There may be a possibility that you may take an active part outside your home.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

but dun believe this too much..in psychology..these kind of tests r juz meant to make u happy, DUN believe them...hahahahaha
psyhology~~~~

crOwn_clOvera 8/19/2004 09:10:00 PM

i missed my bus stop today!!argh..when i was comin hm..i wanted to read my LTB notes on the bus..but aft lik 2 sentences?i started to yawn..so i tot take a short nap..den i slp..slp..slp...slp.....wake up..erm where am i?eh this place familiar..erm oh shit!!miss my stop!!den quickly got off den call mama n come n fetch me..coz it's still in sungei kadut area..well the thing is tat..i took 170 to e bus stop outside papa's fac there la..den it's lik this bus goes frm my sch wil go jb one la..i was thinking if i din wake up juz now n cont to slp..den wo bu shi qu jb le???hahaha..mama was laughin at me..great la go jb den go shoppin la den shiok ar..haha

had competencies & strategies lesson today..was okie..prof ong quite leng3 ar..but that glenda singh super dry..den i realised i forgot all abt improving my eng skills in these 9mths..im suppose to brush up my eng..n for comm eng is a very impt factor..die la..i betta mug more..
i kept saying i wanna mug la..but today i went lib for lik 3hrs n i did nothing..i kept surfing net..i guess having a laptop isnt all that gd coz i cant conc in my studies..cannot i mux b more disciplined..yesh i wil do it! =)

uni life is really scary la..today i almost cried coz i was too stressed up..that's y i decided to drop sociology to salvage the situation.. =(
sociology is fun lor..i decided to drop it during noon break when i talked to sis..i told her i wanna pia3 my studies den finish in 3.5 yrs so as to save 2000 plus bucks..but she scolded me tat if bcoz of that 2000bucks, i take too much courses in a sem den din perform, in the future i wun b able to get gd honours n wun get a gd job n of coz a decent pay..v true hor? ya..i realised i alwaz dun think far enough..i alwaz think wat's happening now n solve now..but i shld think bout the future..hee i'l learn la..

but anyhow i stil went for the sociology claz in the afternoon coz i wanna noe wat this subj is all abt..n guess wat..i also fall in love wih this subj le...prof hikaru v amiable n friendly..n she's alwaz smiling..haha..but this subj is too xiong le..if i take tihs for this sem i wil die there there ar...coz it's lik for LTB, there isnt any exams n everything is on claz participation n proj n sorts..n lik psyc is lik listen to prof n den take notes n den exams in the end..but den sociology is lik listen take notes, den pojects, den exams, den project, den exams den presentation..siao ar?combination of both?if i take i wil go crazy la..but this sub is really interesting..hey u ppl y dun come smu????u can take psyc n socio as general education lor..without going fass..haha..n the profs r all very nice ppl..til now la..haha..hmm guess i din make a wrong choice to come smu..yeah..the teaching methods r wat i really want..i cant imagine myself going ntu or nus n having lects n listen to lecturers who r usually boring n unentertaining..den it's lik nus ntu lects u can come n go as u wish..if i go there ar.. i think i wil juz 'yawnz today too late le dun go' sort of thing..haha

I LOVE SMU!! =)

crOwn_clOvera 8/19/2004 09:10:00 PM

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

The reason

i'm not a perfect person.
there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go,
that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt you,
its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through,
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears,
thats why i need you to hear

i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you

i'm not a perfect person,
i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go
that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you

i've found a reason to show
a side of me you didnt knowa reason for all that i do,
and the reason is you

crOwn_clOvera 8/18/2004 10:20:00 PM

yup I think I’ll juz write my blog while im on e way hm..it saves time n I hav sth to do other than slackin on the bus..den ltr reach hm le den post it online can liao lor..

today had lunch with siew hui n her bunch of frens..it’s lik ytday I had lunch w yi shan n her frens, today is siew hui..haha pathetic aint i? nah I dun really care much..
den there’s this fren of siew hui called timothy, he’s super like charles can~~ well appearance wise not lah..but the way they talk, e way they present themselves in front of others all very alike lor..it’s lik they hav the same “air” a.k.a say3..n he’s was oso from sji too..so qiao..but den siew hui asked timothy a few times le..he dunno who’s charles or jun lie or Jackson choo..well they r 2 yrs apart so ya..but they super alike..haha..initially when siew hui told me I din really believe..but now, I’ve seen for myself..haha

actually this isn’t all that bad..i go into other ppl’s grp den mix abit den into another grp den mix abit..den when I want time alone I wil b alone..coz sometimes I juz wanna hav a quick lunch for my 3 hrs break den go mug..but these 3 days past n I did nothing during break..cannot ar..

I think my brain is lik a hse left vacant for too long..u noe if a hse does not hav any1 living inside, it wil turn dilapidated n wil start to fall apart n sorts? Ya my brain is lik tat now..havnt been using it for 8,9 mths le..little wonder y ridz call me a bim..my brain is lik nothing is put inside for so long tat it has fallen apart..i need glue to fix it back..yesh la..haa..

crOwn_clOvera 8/18/2004 06:05:00 PM

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

ya i really think my life wil turn rush here rush there rush everywhere..it seems i dun hav enough time now..it's lik i havtn even start projects n ccas n sorts n im runnig out of time for things..shld cut down on my slacking time..yesshh..so i wil limit 15mins to a blog only..wah v hard lor but i 'll try..hee

ya la!!rambutan freeze v nice..haha..yeah i recommended it to u n kok n it succeed..haha..woo..i miss rambutan freeze n mocha frap...mocha frap~~~

yoday has a course called leadership n teambuilding..very interesting!!haha coz e class was on..den e lecturer was v outspoken n humorous..yeah this wil b another seminar i wil wish to go more times..yeah..but 1 wk only once...
den there's this guy fr e same seminar,he's not cute but quite wu3 say3..haa..life needs to b in this way..buo cute guys..or else life wil b so so soo borinnggg...haha..

n i think uni life is not all that gd..coz i needa buy lotsa txtbks..damn..i've spent lik 100bucks now?n i only bgt txtbks for 2 of my courses..so i needa spend lik 100bucks more for e other 3 courses..shit..shit..
n that B****** philips nv bank in my pay again!!this is lik e 5th time???i think im going to email in to their HR..tolerance has a limit..wahaha but i gotta find time to write e letter la..dunno la..but im damn pissed coz they forever lik tat..

enoughof crapping..coz i needa finish a chapter of my psychology n a thin stack of notes for LTB..n i've class tmr morn..n morn class is psychology...ahhhh

taaa

crOwn_clOvera 8/17/2004 09:55:00 PM

Monday, August 16, 2004

n guess wat guess WAT!!!! i saw ALLAN WU today!!! AHHH!!! he so shuai!!haha
i was sitting at e bus stop outside smu..den some guy in shorts only ran past..den i look up den i saw his face n he's allan wu!!wah shuai!!haha..but he was sweating liao siao la but stil shuai
haha
great i saw 2 shuai ge in 2 days =) *_*

crOwn_clOvera 8/16/2004 09:52:00 PM

Hmm 1st day at sch..nothing much aar..i din hav insomia lik in the past..guess I noe nothing big deal abt it..haa
Plus I was down e whole day coz of last nite..

I was supposed to b out of hse at 920 this morn..n guess wat?i only get to get out at 935..n so I was late..i woke up at 830 lor I oso dunno wat I was doin..but juz lazing ard I guess..den reached bus stop n tat toopid 170 si si dou bu yao lai..pissed ar..i hav lessons at 1015 n 945 I was stil in kranji???so I took a cab to sch la..screw it..cost me 9bucks..well it’s my fault la..okie im not gonna do tat again..im not tat rich to take cab all the time..

In sch..im a loner la basically..
Reached sch n went psychology lesson..i din talk much other than introducing myself when they asked me..i guess my mood the whole day wasn’t v gd..den after tat at 12 went lunch myself..i kindda lik e feelin of eating alone..for today la..coz I dun wanna talk to any1..but I really enjoyed psychology class leh.. I finally found the interest n re cheng I had in psychology..this feelin has been lost for v long..i rem when I was in sec sch n j1..i alwaz go lib borrow books on tat..but I seriously need a lot of reading up..coz every1 seems to noe so well n I noe nuts…

Den aft lunch saw yi shan den hanged out w them..she’s really a nice person..den mun chi v pretty leh..haa...den slacked for lik 3 hrs den went stats..can class b more boring or not???tat lecturer is lik sooooo boring..he started askin wat's stats..den ppl splain say wat hypothesis n probability..den he asked wat's prob n wat's hypothesis..den it went on n on..sian..den after tat he went thru the coin prob=0.5 thing..boring!!kindda wasted my 1.5hrs there..but i guess it's not for some others..coz some nv take stats b4..some lik ridz(same claz as me =) ) they studied stats in poly but it's diff frm wat e lect say today..strange..dunno y..

if i were given a 2nd chance i wud wanna try harder..but i cant now..coz i cant turn back e time n i cant take back wat i said..sorry for being so rude to u..

crOwn_clOvera 8/16/2004 09:50:00 PM

hey dun take me seriously k??ytday i was juz bitchin ard so dun take me seriously la..n pls la if i was hiding something do u think i'll tel any1???hee =P
but im happy coz i noe stil got ppl come my blog..wooo...haha

my day::CIP -at oriental plaza party world ktv it's basically juz grade competing grps of their singing ability..quite fun la to do this kind of thing for my CIP..den aft tat oso got chance to sing songs though i din sing much..
wah i really miss ktv sia..shld get shuwen they all c they wanna go or not..whole bunch of girls go..hee..if not ask kok n philips ppl c wanna go or not..hee plus i've party world voucher..yeah man.. =)
den walked ard chinatown w siew hui for a while...AHHHHH!!!GUESS WHO I SAW!!! WANG TIAN CAI!! HE DAMN SHUAI CAN~~~~~~~ haha really..he super shuai n cute..we saw him outside some restaurant sitting ther..haha but i think he's acting say3 there la..coz he juz sit there look out n do nothing..but who cares...he's soooo shuai!!haha..me n siew hui almost wanted to go n take photo with him but i dun dare..sorry siew hui..i dun hav tat courage..
den ltr aft getting our things we went back to c if he's stil ther so can fake fake take a pic of him la..aww but he not there le..so sad...haha..but he's damn shuai!!!hee

haha siew mei ar throw ur msn away la..hee..it's really keep on dc-ing..perhaps u can try unistallin it den install again mayb wil help..or else it may b conflicts in progs..did u install any new things these days?

tmr's 1st day of sch....in less than 10hrs i'll b in some seminar room listenin to lecturer..gosh..time flies real fast..i've slacked for nearly 9mths le...im so not used to it..im gonna start sch life again..haiz haiz...how i wish i was lik ying n wen who'r so excited bout startin sch..im having doubts of my choice of sch n uni..did i make e correct choice to go SS?i dunno..cant regret..i wil try my best..but the feelin that i may not make it n fail n kena kicked out of sch is scary...haiz dun think..juz mug...yes i wanna mug lotz n b active in CCA too..gonna join bodyworks no matter wat le..waiting for more extremist activites..hmm wat else?mayb i shld try e fencing clinic too...wat else??dunno la but wil try to b active..

crOwn_clOvera 8/16/2004 12:34:00 AM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

i really think im a real big bitch
im hiding things which i shld not
n yet im thinkin more than i shld
screw it
im not feelin right
suck

crOwn_clOvera 8/15/2004 12:09:00 AM

Saturday, August 14, 2004

im so tired bcoz of after effects frm e camp such tat i scream at any1 who talks to me..actually no la not every1..juz mama n sista..sorry k..but im juz so tired n sorts..n they keep bombarding me w some qns..im juz irritated..n nw they r having a gathering bbq downstairs ar n im here w my laptop..tat's not correct but heck

went convocation today..smu is lik tat..freshies gotta go convo b4 starting sch..but it was fun..so much interesting than ntu's..haha no offense..but its true..they even had rock band to perform though e rock band suck big time..n they even wan us to dance along w e rock music in our formal clothes..siao

i was wondering is the crush feelin stil there..i think i was seriously juz playin..it was more of those i wan the attention n enjoyed e attention rather than a serious thing..well im juz playing la..haha..it's so much betta to play than to b serious..i mean y b so serious??u wil get so hurt..so hav fun la..yes la im a bitch la

hmm dun b sad k girl??i dunno wat to tel u n im really bad at comfortin n u said ignore u..but do call if u need some1 to talk to k?mine is free incoming rem??hee..u can call n crap no need to b some particular thing..haha im bad coz i ask u to call me but im forever so lazy to call any1 to chat..haa..

crOwn_clOvera 8/14/2004 08:40:00 PM

yes yes yes!!!
im with my laptop now..3 str days w/o laptop..sad la..haha
basically im tired now..not v tired still okie..but my butt aches..n i dunno y..

CAMP

|DAY 1|
reached upper quad at ard 810..was late..well i was on purpose..den went to our sleepin quarters to interact a lil..den it was mass activities..u cant imagine more sucky was it..this lecturer called sam, he did things lik every1 get into grps n den u r the submarine ocean liner or boat for these 3 days..got some other stupid things ar..oh ya aft interaction we went back upper quad n we following sam to do things lik "raise ur left hand,put it down. raise ur right hand,put it down. n now raise both hands n put down ur left hand. ha ha ha" funny ar?sheng jing pin
den aft tat we do the six steps thing..lik 1st:both hands up,2nd:left hand down right hand horizontal,3rd:left up right down etc..super dumb..n it's suppose to TEAM BUILD ar..ya rite..
den aft lunch was own grp games..it was stil dumb..coz our grp super slack so most of e time we sat there n rot..but one thing is good..coz we started playin captain's ball!!yeah!!though only for a while..i still enjoy it lots..coz can sweat n run n hav fun..aww i miss s10 captain's ball...hee
den went to make float for our team..float is lik a mascot sorta thing but it's more of chingay style..they gave us some basic materials n we gotta bid for some others..they r tryin to stimulate BOSS (our bidding system)..but quite sad..coz our grp shld hav 13.den 1 guy not comin.so left 2 guys 10 gals..den aft captain's ball 1 injured 2 sick..so left with 9 ppl..v lil ppl la coz other teams r lik 13 ppl?haiz..tat miranda siao za bo she play captain's ball den somehow stepped on her foot n she sprained it..haha..but she's a real funny gal..coz she can come up with those bimbo looks tat wil laugh ur ass off..n she's called the milo girl coz she loves milo..haha..jia jia went hm aft captain's ball coz she was havin flu..dunno ar it's lik on vivace tat day i clicked w her..but during camp it isnt tat so le..hmmm dunno la..
den aft dinner cont to make e float as we wait for our turn to go nite walk..this night walk is actually a haunted hse walk ar..it's lik u go into some less popular building in smu compound n den e facilitators(faci) r all prepared to scare u lor..but in the end aft waiting for lik 2 hrs til 12am they say too late le ours is postponed to 2nd nite..
den ya the toilet for bathing is really those portable one..but it's ok la not tat bad..i was the last one to get out of the toilet...haha..

|day 2|
woke up lik 7am???siao i only had mayb 5hrs of slp lor n it wasnt comfortable..den we went for mystery hunt in e morn..this game quite dumb plus funny..coz we gotta go round botanical garden to look for these few ppl who r suspects of a murder..den we gotta deduce who's the murderer n sorts..haa i think my grp is a super supr slacker grp?coz there r some grps who ran n we juz stroll slowly as if we hav all the time in the world..this is sth gd abt our grp..coz all of us prsent r really slackers so we dun hav lik some who cheong n cheong n some stroll behind..den tat ridz kept calling me bimbo..i oso forgot how it started but he started callin me bimbo..oh oh..haha i think was bcoz me n yi shan bitch bout some guy tat i shant waste my time saying who..den ridz is lik im bitchin again n he say only bimbos do that..sort of la..den aft tat anything tat is dumb he wil say i'll do it coz im a bim..haha..
after lunch we had telematch..it's nothing la juz games n move frm station to station..oh ya den during this telematch ar..me n darrelene(a girl) started to talk bout is there cute guys ard or not thing..haha den both of us tot roger was quite cute..he's the section head of 10..coz grps r lik 10-1,10-2 n sorts..n mine is 10-2..he's not those handsome type..but tanned tall beach boys type la..hee..he's damn cool when he has his sunglasses on ar..haha..den darrelene finds he getting cuter n cuter..haa =P
den aft dinner was the same ar we went to make float to wait for our turn for night walk..den finally we went there..but......
tel u im stil v scared now..it's lik we waited ther for instructions to go in ar..den suddenly this faci came out n told us to sit down n he started tellin us night walk is temporarily halt..i was relieved???haha..but the worse thing is u noe y is it halt??coz 3 faci who were fakin to b ghosts in thr say they saw 1 real one..im stil v scared now ar..it's lik so scary..we all were lik half believe only but den ltr more faci came over n said it's cancelled..i freaked out ar..really..den it's lik when i tel them im scared..they dun seem to believe..well im not those lil weak girl so ya la..i dunno..im still v freaked out now..haiz..
den e aircon in our area was down coz they say the compressor was on for too long..den it was too stuffy in the room so lik mayb 10 of us slept at e balcony..quite coolin ar..den it's lik i slept thru out n din wake up alot in the nite..it's shiok la..

|day 3|
basically is juz make float n den parade aft tat..our grp one is crap la coz it was super disorganised n unprepared...though it's made with our buddy grp who's quite hardworkin..but with slackers ard..haha..n i oso dunno how today we juz make n make til 12pm..den lunch n parade n clean up n in the end i reached hm at 7pm..screw it which camp ends so late??smu's...............

in overall...hmm this camp i slept lik 5 hrs for each nite la..but im stil v tired now..n when im tired i'l blow my top at ppl..n i juz did at my sista..poor sis..haha..it's fun la this camp..coz i gotta noe yi shan who's v siao n fun-loving, darrelene is less of a slacker n can buo guys w her..den there's candace..wah i tel u she's one big beauty..hee..really..she has the dancer look n she's really a dancer..den she has e qian jin xiao jie look..she's fr SA ar n heard tat her bf is fr chinese high's shuai ge..lang cai nu mao...hee..den there's ridz..he's alwaz trying to find things to say im a bitch or bimbo..haha but fun la coz he wil oso joins into our girls' bitchin session..haa..den siew mei is a really petite girl..not v close to her la..den oso ming jun..initially i tot he's those dun miz ard n dun joke coz he's big n tall..mayb he looks intimidating to me..haha..in the end he was super interested when we started bitching about this guy frm our buddy grp..haha..well n of coz our faci yan bin..she's a realy nice person..though i think she's really sad coz our grp v lil ppl..
dunno but i feel lik being a faci nxt yr..can try lor lik y not..
tmr meeting them b4 going for our convocation..smu strange one la ppl convo only when graduate but we gotta start w convo..i din wan to go intially but they r meeting up so juz go..but sian coz i dun hav a white long sleeve shirt n muz wear tmr n i havta buy b4 going in i guess..sian la..

too tired le..im going to die soon..tmr gotta wake up early coz gotta reach by 11..or earlier to get the shirt...but screw it which shop is opened b4 11..argh..

crOwn_clOvera 8/14/2004 12:45:00 AM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

hee finish packin le!!hee
but my bag is on the verge of bursting..poor bag..

my day::
12-5:in sch, torturin myself
5-10:dinner,movie(!!)
10 to now:packing

i think im retarded lor..coz tat time when i went sch i tot need 45mins to reach..so i added 10mins waiting time so i was so kan jiong today tot i was late for sch
den in the end,i reached at 1210??!!luckily saw siew hui den talk cock abit..

hmm my og ppl not bad la..they seem quite sporty..but i can only evaluate aft camp..haha..but got to noe jia jia..her name cool ar coz she calls herself alex..she's nice to talk to ar..den she accompanied me thru out vivace..hee
n i signed up for ALOT if ccas..i dun dare to go n check my smu mail..coz i think i wrote my email 10 over times..
basically im interested in:
-bodyworks (pilates,yoga,kickboxing etc)
-fencing
-extremist (aka ODAC)
-SMU BE (back stage n emcees)
-aikido (juz wanna noe more)
-sailing
-archery
-pool club
-AIESEC society (some help club for overseas exchange prog)
-toastmasters club (one tat helps to train u up for public speaking which i need badly)
n alot others but i forgot le..coz i think i wrote my email down 12 times..coz needa collect 12 cca stamps..this whole thing goes lik we havta go rd the sch to collect 12 cca stamps n 6 game stations stamp..well i think those tat im interested in i've listed above le..but i cant recall the others..aft collecting all the stamps den can collect a goodie bag tat has alot of things inside..but i think only the slpin bag is useful..
the worse thing is me n jia jia were too slow so we almost miss the goodie bag collection time..argh n so we ran..aiyoh n i became all sweaty n er xin..luckily i brgt clothes to change..hee or else how can go movies..
n so i went movies with a super big smu bag pack,a slpin bag n my own bag.great bags alot

movie is nice ar..watched brotherhood..
but i think it's too gruesome le..coz lik they bomb away one hand oso show the broken hand n everything..they even make it worse by having red blood on the screen..eee..haha den i think got one pt suddenly bomb n den i shouted..haha..
overall it's nice la..yuan bin getting more n more cute..hee

but wat spoils e whole day is my puma shoes..dunno y wear too long den my sheen n ankle pain..mayb new bah..

so sad im going camp for 3 days..so means no blogging AT ALL for 3 days...hopefully camp is nice n fun..coz i wanna know more ppl in campus..dunno juz feel know more ppl wil only b betta but not worse..so y not?haha

so bye bye cya on fri(i hope,if i din die in camp coz they day toilet is those public toilet,i may die of stench-poisoning)

crOwn_clOvera 8/11/2004 12:45:00 AM

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

haha i think i wil hav lotsa titles with this name coz i cant think of any titles coz im really bo liao now..

goin to sch for orientation ltr..muz reach by 1230..so gotta get outta hm at 1120..sian muz take e toopid 171 tat takes hell long time to reach sch..
Y IS MY SCH SO FAR AWAY???
hee

den aft tat im going movies..yeah!hee =P

while now im bz packin my bag for my camp,seriously the bag i juz bgt tat's supposedly v big is not big enough for me now..haiz i wil get some things out..n im thinkin shld i bring my hp..coz they say dun bring valuables..but im super attached to my hp..if it's not with me for a while i wil feel so insecure..hmm i think i'l bring my mama's phone..hee cheapo phone nvm..

sometimes i wish i dun treat ppl lik tat..i noe ppl wil get hurt but i din mean it..well or mayb he aint hurt at all??hee think too much
**caiying im trying to heed ur advice** hee

crOwn_clOvera 8/10/2004 10:30:00 AM

Monday, August 09, 2004

basically im doing nothing now other than chatting

juz to say...hello!!haha

crOwn_clOvera 8/09/2004 11:10:00 PM

yes la!! this html bai chi here after trying for 4 5 hrs in total finally get the tag board up...im dumb or dumb?????
i tried to get a tag board last nite, den it's lik i din c the advanced n basic type..so i stupidly go n press advanced one..den it's lik it needs sponsor or payment..so i got the sponsor one lor..den needa find sponsor..den crap la i cant use a fake credit card no to get thru it n i tried til lik 2am last nite....
and now?
i go www.tag-board.com again n den i saw the basic one.
and in 10mins, it's done.
clever eh??
pandai eh??
toopid!!!

okie so ppl if u happen to pass by juz keep tagging k??
i juz wanna talk to ppl here
it's betta to talk cock here than face to face
hee

alright my day:
8am to 3pm:east coast park
3pm to now:with my laptop

east coast quite fun ar...still lik it v much..though i was ther lik 2 mths back during chalet??but chalet was quite sucky so...ya...haha
went with family today..sorta a picnic ar..i only noe i keep eating..
shit getting fatter
but who cares??? =P

life is a bore la
n i juz got to know my timetable
not confirmed yet but it seemed super doper sucky
coz it's lik mon to wed afternoon slots and den thurs mayb whole day??
confirm le den write here so can confirm a day w clau wen n ying to go sch...yupz..

to caiying::hee tag board is done so dun need help here le..
but seriously need help in html (bai chi here*)
hee

this feelin of losing the attention sucks..not even a forwarded mail..

crOwn_clOvera 8/09/2004 05:45:00 PM

basically i started this blog is to keep in touch with ppl ard me la..so pls do help me by being active in comments k??
thanx =)
n mayb pass this webby ard?haha

today is great man.. coz i went on shoppin spree..haha went turf city's sportslink sale..hee
achievements::
-pair of puma shoes (for go gai3 gai2 use)
-a pair of nike sports shoes (it's WHITE plus silver!!i muz promise myself to b really careful not to dirty it,at least not too soon. okie cannot bring to camp)
-a big diadora bag for camp use
-a nike cap!!!
hee
n sis bgt a fila handbag but i paid for it..shld i get her to pay me??hmm hmm..
hee
but guess wat,i paid $150 bucks
worst thing is:
i din feel e pinch
but i wil when i calculate my expenses mid mth..
haha heck ar

den i went east coast today..with my family..haha they r crazy..they wanna go ther tmr morn at 7am..siao??ya i seriously think so..coz they r depriving me of my darling sleep
evil daughter
so i havta wake up lik in 6 hrs??haiz sian

oh oh!!n aft dinner at east coast park we went esplanade there to b in the traffic jam
haha siao no la but to c the fireworks..
it sucks!!!!!!!!!
coz it's lik our view is partially blocked by the durian den it seems to b less tham 5 mins..the 1st time i saw fireworks was during our s10 chalet in J1..tat's the prettiest i've even seen lor(ya i've only seen 2) haha..but it was for esplanade grand opening day so it was v grand..
awww...i miss the time when our class were at chalet...

i seriously think i shld spend lesser time in slping coz it's a waste of time
i can do more constructive things during tat time
but we r made this way to slp to gain back energy..y cant we b made by eating batteries so it's lik no energy le den we eat batteries den dun needa slp??haha

to jack:haha this is y i cant go bukit timah k..lazy to reply u la

to caiying::y u say "im glad youre ok"?? when wasnt i??hee

crOwn_clOvera 8/09/2004 03:50:00 PM