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Thursday, March 31, 2005

hey help me w this survey okie????

http://surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=54377969989

thanks!!!!

crOwn_clOvera 3/31/2005 04:39:00 PM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

uhhhh im bored
v bored
getting so sian of blogging unless im damn free
apparently im not that free
but i m slacking at hm...
had some driving juz now..er yi say my hands no strength...UHHH???no strength??i tot i power woman got alot of strength???hahah..uhh uhh..
bored...
it seems lik every other person in smu ard me are attached..hey it's so alot okie..alot alot of ppl attached...n den..there are some sad souls too..i guess im too insensitive..well i cant care much anymore..im tired..it's had to act goodie...im not one..deifinitely...sometimes i juz wanna tel that person to shuttup..but well i dun dare..coz im hum..haha..ya ya..or rather i cant be bothered..
yucks
will i pass my practical??uhh long time ltr..think ltr..
im lik 2.5 wks away from exams sia..n im lik "dodo dada"
ya indifferent
what to do?trying hard to push my ass but not tat ez okie..i have big ass..v had to push..
n oh ya..im in faci..ya ya..wen, ying..what u called GL too lor..me in too..i noe got other 2 frens in le..im going in coz i 'dun wanna waste my uni life away' as wat wen n sis said..n its lik i stil wanna work..loreal called me tat day to ask me back to work..hey im appreciated!!hahaha..im happy coz it seems lik im useful..nvm if they are saying things out of politeness..im useful. that's it.
n i wan to go back there work..they called me lik 2 3 times last yr le lor..i nv go back..feel bad..i will go work for a mth at least this summer..coz i wanna earn quick bucks and gain more experience..hopefully i can work for shiseido nxt summer..yeah!!den earn money n work for my fav skincare..haha..doodoo dada
n i wanna go overseas..hongkong?thailand?shanghai?i wish someone can juz "nah,give u" give me lik few thousands..den i can go Europe..i wanna go back there..i miss there alot alot...if no europe aust oso can..i miss these places..
but no one can do tat..even mama is not giving me money..sis dun even hav that amt of money..she has to help support the family too k..so im lik oh no money.....work work work...can someone tel me some work tat can earn super alot??prostitute?ya ya i noe..but they wun wan me..siao
im bored as u can see...
i am about me n myself..so it seems lik im in my own world..uhh yes i am..i dun feel lik meeting much people..dunno..been 'bleh' mood..uhh..this fri..oh shit i havnt reply kok..uhh..i think i will give it a miss again..sorry kok..
dotdotdot-->caiying fav word to me

crOwn_clOvera 3/22/2005 05:03:00 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005

yeah love thyself

crOwn_clOvera 3/14/2005 02:14:00 PM

something saddened me ytday..
why is it that ppl lik to make love and yet not bear the consequences of it??
look at the girl who threw new newborn into the bin down 18floors..why is it that only the girl has to bear consequences??where the fuck the the guy??why isnt there any media sourcing out who is the bastard who did it??why muz the girl face criticisms from the whole world, face the guilt of killing her own baby for life..getting no support from anyone..if she had the support she needed from her bf, lik bearing the consquence, lik taking care of her and the baby..will she have the heart to throw the baby down??hey the baby is inside her for so many months u noe..i dun believe any mother will do that unless circumstances pushed her to do that..or if bastard daddy dun support the poor daddy, den how abt the family?yeah i noe it's wrong to hav premarital sex and parents will feel ashamed. but hey it's a little life u noe??at least support ur daughter?if she had the support, will u think she will b so depressed and desperate to throw the baby down?the mummy is the only one who will bear the guilt forever u noe..ur own blood..and yet you threw the baby down bcoz u cannot n shldnt let the baby leave in the world..
so why?tel me why muz the mother bear full consequence??when the bastard was left outside to screw another poor girl and cause more trouble??i seriously dun get it. if i was the media, i will definitely go n haunt the guy down and report him..y is the police so flawed that the mother will be sentenced for throwing the baby and yet the father is left to screw others??y??
sex this word, or rather this thing is too evil i can tel u..some ppl juz enjoy the process and when there is a consequence, what do they do?yeah abort.
fuck it
how can u do it??
imagine u are the child: your mama killed u cause she dun wan u..okie this doesnt sound that sad, but think, if ur mama make love with ur papa and den dun feel lik supportin u, so what?well u are gone??u dun hav the right to live anymore..bcoz they made u and they dun wan u..they tel u i juz abort if i cant support..fuck..if u cant support the baby, den use condom!
n the case in 2000 when 7 teenagers abused another teen?4 of those were sisters, and guess what?their father is a convict and mother is a hostess.im not saying that im stereotypin. but even the judge scolded them that they shld teach their children..one of the sisters was having a baby when she was convicted.what happens to the baby??abort or live in jail..so it's that simple aint it??
a baby is not That impt is it??just this or that aint it??
dun think that it is alright..ladies pls protect urself..if one day u really make love with this guy and he abandon u, u are doomed..coz u will hav to bear the full consequence..well u might say sometimes guys will bear it too..lik taking care of the child..but hey u see this or not..if the guy bears, he will take 50% and girl will take 50%..and if the guy is a bastard, den u?yeah 100%..full..so it's 150 to 50 u realise??
and guys, pls be less horny..if u cannot take the consequnce, den pls do all preventive measures or else dun do it..
and another case, if u are already married, also pls do all preventive measures alright..if u cant support the baby, if u dun hav the financial capabilities den make love all u one but noe this, dun let accidents happen..well if u decide to let the baby come to the world so it's almost okie..just rem..dun tell ur child that he/she is an accident..imagine the child's feelings okie..it's hurting..it's hurting to think that ur parents are just those who enjoy the process and dun care the consequence..
this world is liberal
yes
but you can do ur part to protect urself..be liberal..but not loose..be liberal but not irresponsible..

crOwn_clOvera 3/14/2005 01:50:00 PM

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Mocking Bird

Yeah
I know sometimes things might not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
Whatchu crying about?
You got me..

Hailie, I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when Im gone
But Im trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see youre sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside, you wanna cry
Cuz youre scared
I aint there?
Daddys with you in your prayers
No more crying
Wipe them tears
Daddys here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gonna do it
Laini, uncles crazy aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
Were all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it’s confusing you
Daddys always on the move
Mamas always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
the more it backfires on me
All the things, growing up
As daddy that he had to see
Daddy dont want you to see
But you see just as much as me (to see?)
That we did not plan it to be this way
Youre mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I dont see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be when was teenagers
But then of coarse
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But its just something
We have no control over
And thats what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we will wake up
And this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby dont you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddys here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommys not here right now and we dont know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mamas gonna be alright

Its funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up
and stuck them under the tree
and said some of them were from me
Cos daddy couldnt buy them
I’ll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night cryin
Cuz daddy felt like a bum
See dadday had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money
For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you can go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mamas heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on the chamas and the flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novarra
And thats when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work
You and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didnt like it
And you and Laini were too young to understand it
Papa was a rolling stone
mama developed a habit
and it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
Im just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin’in this empty house, just reminiscin
Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
Its almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And daddy’s still here
Laini Im talking to you too
Daddys still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It’s got a ring to it, don’t it?
Shhh, mamas only gone for the moment

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby dont you cry
Everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya daddys here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommys not here right now and we dont know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy pretty baby
But I promise
Mamas gonna be alright

And if you ask me to,
Daddys gonna buy you a mocking bird
mama give you the world
mama buy a diamond ring for you
Im sing for you, I will do anything for you to see you smile
And if the mockingbird don’t sing and the ring dont shine
Im break that birdys neck
I will go back to the ***eler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat
Dont fuck wit dat.
hah

crOwn_clOvera 3/12/2005 10:24:00 PM

im so bored..so bored..nothing to do..
i studied more than i expected today..*surpprised**
spending my time all alone at hm..so bored..daddy mommy n sista all out..
sometimes i really trhink..will i left with one day where i dont hav any frens..lik i cant meet ppl coz i needa study or juz plain lazy to go out..n tat makes me lose frens?i dunno..but it's lik for philips colleague lik tat..i think first few times, mayb lik 3 4 times i din go for their gathering for various reasons..but mainly was bcoz i hav sth on or tat i needa studt for tests..juz wanna tell kok..dun bother to ask me along for the nxt outing le la..coz it's lik u asked me so many times n i alwaz nv go..n i feel paiseh..plus it's lik perhaps they will think i purposely dun wanna go..so if nxt time i go i think i will b left out?dunno..

oh gosh watching some channel 8 show that shows those 7 teenagers torture another teenager..are all of them so ruthless or did they conform to the majority?shld the court find out who was actually the ones who started the torture and punish him or her most severely??hai...how i wish i can read ppl's mind....those disgusting minds n clean them away..so that the world will b perfect...but that's crap..yeah crap..coz b4 i cleanse others' mind..i hav to clean mine..sth wrong with me..

girl ar dun b too crazy over diets k..love urself..you are beautiful and u are wonderful..i mean it..dun hurt ur body k..anything juz talk to us..really..

i wonder can i really become a psychologist or a counseller when me myself has so much probs..dunno..life mayb hard..but i gotta live it to the fullest..or at least fuller..haha..coz right now im not doing anything to live it to the fullest..

i really think jing n keelong damn pei..so so compatible..so sweet...but..nvm..they are so sweet la!!haha..they hav fu qi lian leh..haha..n siew hui's getting on fine with her guy..n aileen is attached with oliver..n this n that..i alwaz feel so happy when i see my frens getting attached or being v xing fu..haha..

crOwn_clOvera 3/12/2005 09:30:00 PM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

You Are 30% Left Brained, 70% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.

Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.

If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.

Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.

Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.

If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.

Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

crOwn_clOvera 3/10/2005 09:57:00 PM

Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

crOwn_clOvera 3/10/2005 09:43:00 PM

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

OH!

HAPPY BDAY JING!!!

hhaha..
hey i wanted to send u a mms..but i think it cant get thru..dunno y..but nvm la..hee..
n today's my xiao jiu jiu bday too..
n today's fu4 nu3 jie2 too..haha
n todya's tuesday too..
n today's the day after monday too...

okie stop
ya i needa go do work liao..
jia you jia you~~
everyone jia you!!lalala

oh i got headache le..
but nvm..in few more days i can meet the siao za bos liao..so will b better coz can relax??haha
dun miss me hor~~~
lalala

crOwn_clOvera 3/08/2005 03:04:00 PM

uhh i m juz tryin to waste my time..have like tonnes of work to do??okie no no not that serious..juz KILOGRAMS..ya ya..

was looking thru my timetable cum calendar that day..2 nites ago..n i realised exams are juz 1mth away!!gasps!!this is not the scary thing that im gasping abt..i gasped that i gotta start work soon!!arrrgghh
haha okie it's good to work coz i can earn money..erm well..i shld b doing relief teaching..juz try out..y not..since alot say it's quick bucks..
wen: i dun wanna do the mediacorp one le..hee..coz relief teaching more money n more flexible..i will wanna do it at mayb nxt summer break..coz this summer break i got drivking test that will take up alot of my time n i intend to go thailand..okie INTENDING only..dunno can or not..gotta see how much i can save..erm erm den...

oh ya went back pj that day..gosh i miss that place..Whole LOts of MEMories there...where we had our PE..where our "biggest" LT is..the lockers..the humid hall..the naggy and singlish principal..the teachers..oh gosh i tel u ar..it's lik i went sch n i went office str..n guess wat?i saw mr loh!n wat's the worse??i forgot his name!!haha so i quickly turn away so that it wun b so paiseh..i really realli forgot..n it took me lik erm 15 mins to recall..n talked to mr tan too..he recognised me sia..so surprised..n saw mrs WEE!!!!she's such a fun lady..i love her man..she's lik so lovable and friendly..talks to u so energetically..n she stll rems me n wen ;)
den the tending of booth wasnt tat slack..coz last min there were alot of students comin to ask qns..but i think the three of us gave the students too much hope..coz in the nite when i got hm den i saw the news that this yr is the best among all batch..lik wah piang it will be so much harder to get in liao..but still..we are moving to city campus so shld hav more vacancies rite??hai i think some ppl shld find themselves fortunate..lik some still hog on to places and den deprive those who really really wanna come smu the chance..there are really a handful who wanted to come smu!hee..so happy..hey smu is good okie..well at least til now...

den went lot 1 with that ar wen to eat delifrance..the girl who tagged in my blog n told me gonna do sth to apologise, in the end i treated her??haha..but it was fun..coz gossips gossips..hee..den erm we went walking ard?ya..den we saw her junior who is working at mediacorp..seems quite fun..but tedious though..wen lik i said..we can go for it erm nxt summer break??sorry la coz i wanna earn as much $$$$$ as possible this break..in need of money....

den erm..oh ytday was me n will's 6mths..erm there were some frictions?but we kindda solved it..hai..sometimes i think im a coward n bastard..coz i dun dare to say things..n i dun admit my mistakes..okie i do..but i need time..i will learn to admit to my mistakes..hee

wat else..oh ya n juz had a meeting..it was quite heated..coz i dun really like pushy ppl..i mean okie phrase in this way..i dun lik when ppl point at me when they are talking..lik third aunt..lik it's as if u are definitely correct n u are pushing ur views into me??cant stand it..heng i nv blast..i guess i wun..coz i reckoned to myself that if i cant get my msg thru once, i wun try again..so i will juz shuttup..no pt arguing..i dun lik to try n try..well perhaps i shldnt b so defensive..i get defensive so easily..mayb i will juz take it as it is..until someting t hat i really disagree den i say..or else y spoil the friendship?uh ya SELF TALK
yeah n it's working..i was a little pissed juz now..but im okie..

:)

crOwn_clOvera 3/08/2005 02:43:00 PM

WAAAHHH i blogged!!isnt that great ying!!!wAHHHHH

crOwn_clOvera 3/08/2005 02:42:00 PM

uhhh by the request of my dear ying

crOwn_clOvera 3/08/2005 02:39:00 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

uhh yeah den im going back PJ tmr..to help out for the A levels thing..welll juz sit there for lik 2 hrs n i get 15bucks..not bad la..but it's juz a little waste of time..but i dun noe y these days i cant get my butt to study..okie my eyes n brain n butt..coz butt has no eyes..oh but butt has a crack!!okie but that doesnt help me other than letting off
alright stop crap
but it's lik i hav a course (AS) tat is hell lagging (ever since the first chapter) coz i did not read on it..juz havnt got the chance..or shld i say i din wan..always put it as the last in my priority list..n it seems to b the most most difficult one..but it quite suck now..coz it's darn ma fan..gotta think sooo much..for others..erm the other 3 subjects im still quite in pace..but the thing is im like so relaxing..guess im still in the midterm break mood..but mayb it's lik prjects havnt start..so i cant really get tensed! ar ya..mayb..lalala
uhh uhh
hey jack we have a class gathering lik almost rite aft our this sem okie..i will help u organise coz i finish my exams fastest among all uni..ard mayb..erm end april or early may a class gathering okie??
hem or shld we juz hav a girls gathering??hahaha dunno

oh ya
n that wen
u pig la
oops i havnt reply u...haha u la last nite so blur, make me blur with u n i was lik lying on my lovely bed msging u n i had to reply..cant slp..u!!hee..stop being blur!!piang!

crOwn_clOvera 3/03/2005 09:39:00 AM

uhh another time for me to blabber
hey i always blabber rite?juz go on n on n on den fast n lik i breathe n cont..do i??i think i do..i lik tat feeling..lik u have somethngi to say bout den u juz cont n cont n u say out all ur feelings n scare n everything n wooo..
haha
juz lik my driving
gosh it's been erm 4lessons i think..quite fun till now..but 2nd lesson was disastrous..coz i was so StrEssEd...toooo stressed..coz keep "dead car"..n i will feel incompetent n lose the confidence in myself n when this happens i will lose concentration n will not drive as well den i will make even more mistakes n this goes on
vicious cycle
n den 2 days ago i was telling mama n will that the worst scenario for me will be the day b4 my practical test date the sky rained heavily thru'out the nite n till the time when im driving..n the road is super wet n my vision will be blur coz the windscreen n side mirror and windows will be blurred by rain..
n guess wat!!
ytday i went driving
n it rained HEAVILY
hello?!?!?!?!
i tot juz few days ago there were lik so many hot spots in sing bcoz of the weather..den can it be such a coincidence, that i said my worst scenrio n it rained soooo heavily??huh???
okie mayb the blessing in disguise is that i noe where to on the wiper n the headlights!!thank!!
ha!
cheee
i juz hope i will pass on 24 may
the first time
retaking is not fun at all
hopefully i will
so i will follow every step aunt tells me (ppss in case u dunno, my aunt is my driving instructor)
coz she's such a experienced instructor so i believe that her methods are a sure-win thing..anything thhat papa n sista n bf wanna teach me to drive betta, SHOOO
coz i only wanna learn aunt's, for now
coz i wanna pass!!
uh ya u see im talking to myself
anyway
dun buy bata okie???
NOOO DUN BUY
coz it's really BUY AND THROW AWAY
damn it
i wore this slippers i bgt it some months back n i was wearing it the first time ytday, n guess wat??? i was walking then my feet twist outwards abit n the strip drop out!
it's damn lousy can
coz the side strip is lik juz slotted in, not securely fix in
n i still spent a darn 14 bucks on it
hello 14 for a pair of flops n it spoils the first time i wear it??
FUCK
i am so gonna boycott bata
unless they have 70% sale which is totally impossible
arrrrrggggghhhh

crOwn_clOvera 3/03/2005 09:27:00 AM