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Friday, August 26, 2005

im not really suppose to b here now..as in in this web page..coz im suppose to study..juz the first wk..n it's so stressful..
well it wasnt lik tat until ytday...b4 tat i was quite relaxed n sorts..
but ytday i decided to take a double major in HR and then i realised to finish in 4yrs, i havta take one more mod this sem!so there u go..check thru the requirements, email prof..i was having qualms bout it..coz it's lik they say HR dun need a degree in it..okie siew hui say one..but den i think wat aileen said was v true..juz go for wat u wan..care so much bout wat others say for wat..u hav passion u go for it..
yup so here i m, throwing 41 into my bid for MPW..which is a pre requisite for HR major..41 dollars is holy double of wat they give us for each course..if i dun get it......might as well jump ar..haha..feel lik putting more in now..coz i hav to take it..at least this sem..coz got ppl pei..i dun wanna take it alone..

and so im troubled coz im worried..worried i might not get the course n sorts..
and of coz bout others things too...
so im stressed up..
guess i still cant manage stress at this stage..i mean lik mayb mid term then im able to manage stress..coz it's a gradual thing...if it comes suddenly i wun b able to take it..which is wat im facing now..
wat's worse..my throat is playing w me...
and wat's worst...i hav work tmr..

i seriously detest working...coz i hav to put up a front..wear a 'mask'..
i really wonder..y is it that my sis n bro are so fortunate n yet they dun appreciate it.....during their growing up yrs they can enjoy the luxury n all..but look at me now..
mayb they had their probs too..i dunno...
but sometimes, i really wanna scold my sis..but i wun..it's not all abt her saving money for herself..this is not the issue abt herself only..she doesnt think i feel..if she wans to b with liang den she shld save money for their future coz he's going to study...n if this one yr that she had work, she had save money, den daddy n mummy wun b so sad..y it seems to me she's so selfish..i know her work is really stress n everything..so to spend the money she earned is a definite thing...but it's lik..u dun havta spend everything rite..

im juz..tired..v tired n sad..suddenly..mood swings mayb..i really hope it's mood swings coz this means i'll b fine in a while..

sorry girl i feel my words to u were harsh last nite...sorry...

i needa go study..i tot writing things down i wud feel better n can study better..but it din seem so..oh mayb i shld talk bout something happy!
rite i sold my 2 texts for 53..though i bought them at 75..but can la huh..stil money mah..hee...
oh n my dear dear was so heng ytday...we were in sch, den there was this lucky draw thing..n he won the top prize!!!! cold hard hundred bucks!!!! cash leh cash leh..hee..
when was the last time i won something??
hmm.....haha i think it's the F4 tics 4 yrs back..

im runnig out of things to say le...hmm...oh right im now a 3 day wk..not 2 day le..oh no no it's not confirmed yet..mon den i noe..okie im gonna increase my bid in case i dun get it..it's okie to b the highest bidder..coz that means i got it...haha

right im selling pringles tmr..my lovely mummy adores pringles..i dunno y..mayb coz i sell too much of it i dun lik it...i still love doritos n cheddar ruffles..hee..but nope cannot eat..hee

okie no more blabber...take care okie u!!

oh sorry wen i din noe this phone's price is so persistent..i'll help u look for if there's a lower price k..sorry...

crOwn_clOvera 8/26/2005 02:10:00 PM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

there will b a better tmr darling
things will all work out
i dunno what really happened, but i really hope u are alright..
dun cope things up okie??talk to us..
there are bound to be problems..who dun??deal with them..the resort might not b to end it..work it out together..but i dunno what's the whole story so i cant say much..but if u really hav to resort to it..then is it possible to have a temporary one??
seems quite crap..but i really hope u are fine..

sis n liang oso have probs..about whether they will go far..whether they will walk down the aisle together..it's a long story..juz he needs to study and she dun wanna marry so late..life is juz full of contradictions and problems..even if u solve it temporary, it will still spring out again..and if u solve it tempoorary, this time round when it springs out, it will jump higher...

ahhh i crappy...going for lunch! take care babes!

crOwn_clOvera 8/24/2005 12:08:00 PM

"if i could bottle contentment, then i'd make a fortune.
some ppl juz find it easier to be contented, while others are always looking for more as the grass is always greener on the other side.
however, u dun get to the greener side unless u appreciate any of slightly brown grass u r on.
perhaps, there could be someone or something better ard the corner, or mayb we juz think that way to keep us discontented with whatever we have now."

these words..easier said than done eh...

oh ytday was first day of sch..hmm..okie la..sch is great..coz it's really modern n sorts..but then e only prob is walking from my building (sess) to biz block, is freaking far..n den if during my break i wanna get a bottle of water, i hav to cheong all the way to kopitiam so that i can get a bottle of water..guess it 's the bad thing bout new sch..things are not settled yet..coz dun hav mama shop or watsoever..i wanna buy chocs oso dun hav...haha..
then i think im really slacking le..coz those 2 classes i had ytday, they dun have group projs..which is good..coz can save alot of time..but then this means i will b super slack this term..so i bidded another 0.5 mod..dunno wil get it or not..hope i will hope i dun..lazy la..hee..

wat else...hmm.....oh last weekend at clementi ntuc..hai hai..i meet weird ppl again..hai..dun elaborate..hee..

jing ar..u say wanna come me sch rite..if u wanna come find some day come lor..c wen n ying wanna come or not..hee...quite fun here..n finally our library is big..alot alot of tables..goodie goodie..but the prob is how to sneak in..coz needa cross the "gates"..c how la huh..hee

oh yeah today is gor gor's bday...but he's in aust..but i sent him a prezzie!!hee..oh ya n i thnk this month's 3rd was karen's bday..i forgot to wish her.. :P
i think i v jia lat..always forget...to those bdays whom i din wish u..wish u here k..hee..oh okie this sat is zhen's bday..muz wish here...hee..

oh right..im gonna work in sept..i think im really in need of money..coz i forgot to leave some money for presents la..or textbooks la..hai..all bcoz of money..that's y i say..money shld drop from sky!

rite im blabbering..byeeee

crOwn_clOvera 8/24/2005 11:32:00 AM

Thursday, August 18, 2005

new lease of life for my blog!!!aiya..hai..spent whole day doing it coz i was almost done initially and juz "clear edits" this evil thing i had to redo....
i dun really think the baby pic fits in..but anyhow..i'll find others den replace this..meanwhile..juz this la..hee

crOwn_clOvera 8/18/2005 07:13:00 PM

aiyoh!!yuan lai my blog is already one yr old!!!n i din noe!!
haha
n it's actually created on national day..right..i din noe..well hee nvm la huh.. :P

crOwn_clOvera 8/18/2005 01:57:00 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

hey hey im not in hong kong again k..juz bored to blog..coz it's lik working..rotting..sorta la..hee
oh ya talking bout workibng...hey im selling pringles!!did i tel u guys..hee..so if u are free and craving for samples to eat..den come clementi ntuc the nxt 2 weekends to get from me..haha..but muz buy from me k..hee..i gotta hit target la..lik 65 cans of one specific flavour a day..not including the the flavours..but can la..i managed to do it in the past weekend..was at bishan that 2 dyas..
doing promoter jobs, or rather customer service is really..well it's fun la sometimes but den u kindda meet weird ppl...

this is why:
some china man..lik 40 plus kind started to loiter ard my area with a "hee hee" look on his face..well my only resort was to IGnore..so i did..but den aft lik few mins he said "@%#%$&!&!*#" i was lik HUH?? den he repeated a few times i juz "haha ya" i have no choice alrgiht..muz smile to customer..haha..den he said "youRRR frOOm BeiRRJing?? (it's beijing btw)" den i was lik WTF..my eye balls almost popped out..but i juz being nice and said a v stern NO, I AM FROM SINGAPORE and i walked off..and from the sides of my eyes i saw him still smiling.......!!!! i was so freaky pissed...

well this is juz ONE story..there are juz alot to mention so i will not mention..

yup and if i meet my target..my rate would b 9bucks an hr!!yeah la la!!hee..
so juz last sat n sun, i earned 144bucks..hee..so happy..

and right..im in SCHOOL now..bcoz some freaking things that we needa install for the new campus..but wat i dun understand is: i havta WAIT..coz apparently the configuration cd is LIMITED..wat the fuck..dun they noe that this sch has a quite big population??!!and u only hav a measly few cds to use..hai..cant u juz burn more..i promise i wun tell the authorities.......
haha

erm...wat else to say leh...oh right im starting sch soon..but i really am going to work and study u noe..coz lik ytday i got a job offer to work nxt week any weekdays..i am free on mon n fri..but the pay is only 6bucks and i havta start at 8am in suntec turn me off..so i rejected it..perhaps i shld go for it afterall hor?

right and i juz received a call and den i accepted a work for last 2 weekends of sept..promoter again..coz the pay is darn good la i cant reject...at least 8 bucks an hr everytime leh..or mayb 7.50 sometimes..but i still wun mind la huh..i need money..for hong kong trip..nxt hk trip of coz..

I WANNA GO HONG KONG AGAIN!!!!!!!

really..i so wanna go back there..although there were hiccups here and there..but it's such wonderful trip..coz u can juz spend..u dun think much bout the consequences as long as it's in budget (and IT IS :P)

okie i can start configuring liao..so i shall stop here...i havnt finish my hong kong story..hee..
taaa!!

crOwn_clOvera 8/17/2005 03:17:00 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2005

sooo bored..cant believe i finished 2 online tests..n im sweatin..coz im sitting at second level living room WITHOUT aircon..right im a spoiltbrat..lalala
going to slp le..
nites lo

crOwn_clOvera 8/06/2005 01:22:00 AM

Ash, your Super IQ score is 120

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Concrete Thinker. This means your intelligence is grounded in a clear understanding of what is happening around you. In situations where others are confused, things are crystal clear to you. In addition, you have the unusual combination of strong verbal and numerical skills. You are able to solve equations and then use your verbal skills to explain those solutions to others.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Concrete Thinker? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Concrete Thinker. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

quite dumb i think

crOwn_clOvera 8/06/2005 01:10:00 AM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

wah f**k..uploadin pics is so damn ez from this icon up there..darn..n to think i always went thru the hassle of going to geocities den upload n everything..arrrhhhhh....

this one i took on the plane..erm well not v nice..but the sky really v nice when i saw it there..hahaa

this one i really look lik a tourist eh..this is erm..on the roads in causeway bay..yeah..hee..

on THE PEAK!!!yeah!!!hee..the night scene really pretty..c the nxt pic ;P

okie no more le..coz i really din take much pics and they aint v nice..haha..

crOwn_clOvera 8/03/2005 12:04:00 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

i freaking hate my sch mail ard this time!!coz they lik to spam it..those stupid cca stuff..i dun lik u so stop spamming alright!!
i juz went away for 4 days n there were lik 90plus unread???!!!luckily i always clear m y mail if not the impt mails kena rejected i willkill u ppl who lik to spam!!
haha okie im exaggerating
hee

oh yeah juz read tm's blog..well her blog always does sth when i finish reading it. a smile..hee..u are hilarious la girl...hee
so shld i call u hilary??
oh okie not funny eh
hee

erm erm erm..im bored..that darn will wan me to wait for him to talk leh..hmm but im lazy..hee
oh yeah juz felt strongly bout this..i think in a relationship communication is like THE word..and i mean 2 way communication..heard a few recently..and lik hmm..yeah i noe..but saying is easier rite..i dunno whether u 2 are alright or not..sorry girl tat day aft i came back we were suppose to talk but in the end i tot u will call me n i din call back..hope u are fine k??

hmm pondering..is it really impt to hav alot of frens..coz i juz said i din hav alot of frens in smu..well i really dun hav alot..not even those who can always spend lunch with me..kindda loser ar...but i dunno..it's juz not me to step into the class n start chit chatting n hold a conversation..yes this is wat im bad in..continuing a conversation..i've realised..i like to shut ppl off..lik my sis..n i always tell her off..but i din reflect..hai..
for the past 2 sems i told myself b4 gonig class tat i will talk to others..but well juz somehow..i juz cant..juz cant picture myself doing things lik "hey im ash, so u are?" and lik "haha yeah u are right man!" and "yeah that's cool tat's cool!!".. basically it means starting a conversation and agreeing with the other party..coz i juz realised lik if u start a comnversation and u disagree with that person, the conver stops there.yes there. silence.
so since it will stop in silence y not dun let it start since the ending is the same..right excuses..and another prob with me..well u noe i hav a really bad and nasty face when i dun smile..so sometimes while walking in sch, i might b thinknig or plain stoning, and i passed by some one i juz knew, it might juz take me tat long for him/her to walk past me and hoping i wud say hi, this period, for me to react that i havta say hi..yes that long..so if u dun smile or hi, well gone

oh yeah talking bout sch
guess wat's sch's new system eh??juz went sch today to get the new card..and i realised to get into sch, i havta "tee" to go in..lik MRT..den the gantry will open..and i was telling sis..mrt is lik instantaneously aft the "tee" the gate will open rite..well wat i've tried in shc today is tht aft the "tee" the freaking door took lik 1 to 2 secs to open..and wat's worse..if one day i juz happen to forget to bring my card out, den gone lor, no need to go for classes liao..
well this has it's plus n minuses la..at least there wun b irritating ppl who juz go into our rooms to enjoy the aircon eh..and we are really differnet now..coz other schs dun hav this and no one else can crash into our lectures..haha..
hav yet to noe more bout sch..dun ever ask me lik "oh how's the moving of sch??" and this is wat some asked me tat day..i completely dunno..although it seems to b a big thing la..but it aint to me..to me, i juz wanna get the grades and that's it..
okie this topic of juz getting grades will elaborate some other time..
coz that pig finally done..okie calling time!hee
oh no i havnt load the pics..some other time la..mayb tmr..but i wanted to dedicate tmr to unpacking..haha yes aft so many days i havnt unpack..aiya i bz mah..hee

nite!!!

crOwn_clOvera 8/02/2005 01:03:00 AM

Monday, August 01, 2005

OOOOHHHHH
i finally got the time to blog!hem hem...
let's see...erm erm erm...well i went hk last tues to last fri...shld i list out the day 1 to 4 thinggy??hmm okie ltr...lemme say things i did aft i came back..

erm went charles 'surprise' party..well guess we are not a really good bunch of ppl to giv surprises eh..coz it failed..haha..den..erm...well i oso cant really rem wat happened there..erm juz eugene tryin to trick those girls into HIS game..gosh i wud rather rot den do tat..well erm i still dun hav a really really good impression of him..oops if he sees this den im in trouble..well it's juz my own opinion..no offenses..i mean there are ppl who hates me..so it's okie..hee
den charles mother v cute la..she was soo surprised that my pants is only 10sing..well this is y i wanna go back hk again..i will..definitely..i promise i wun spend on shopping in sing..hee..once i hav enough money i will go again...hee

den sun we all went ard..dad wanted to go sentosa..den we finally parked n got off the car mummy n sis started to complain bout the heat, so we went back to the car..hahaha..den we went mt faber instead...joked ard n played den we went hm...oh yea i realised aft this hk trip..my dislike for china ppl got worse..juz..well let's not say...hee

den i went to watch stealth today..quite nice..so sad edi died...he quite cute actually..hhaha..

alrighty, i will elaborate on hk trip...i tihnk i better cut things short..coz i told dear bout the trip it oso took me lik erm..4 5 hrs to finish ar..hahaha

day 1:
i woke up at lik 4am to catch the 640am flight..den reached at abt 10plus..n the freaking taxi go damn shit slow n it cost us 60plus sing..siao siao siao..oh yeah b4 i cont..i forgot to say i went with who rite??i went with sis, sis's fren (joanna) and jo's bf (pat)..n guess wat??i lost my jacket there...a really really pretty jacket tat i bgt during sale..n it's still 30bucks..hai...i love it alot sia..but well it's fated..coz when we board the taxi sis was holding it on for me..den i completely forogt bout it when we were on the taxi..n we jux got off..tat toopid taxi driver oso dun return to me..

den we went to eat..den shop..shopped at mong kok..but during dinner time jo said she was tired n they went back hotel first..haha n this is kindda rite coz if she was ard me n sis cant possibly shop til late..we shopped till 10plus den we went back..haha siao rite as in we are in foreign grounds n we still stay till so late..hee..i din mean having jo ard was bad..but the clothes at mong kok juz not her cup of tea..so she was juz waiting for us...yeah so it's good tat we stayed n she went back first..haha

tat's bout it eh..erm well i bgt a few of those bohemian clothes..really pretty..n they are all below 15sing..super cheap can...hahaha...

day 2:
we went hong sing for dim sum breakfast..erm which to me was a bomb coz lik 4 person eat near 100 sing..siao..i not THAT rich okie..i rather spend it on clothes..haha
den we went lai chi kok..it's a place where there's wholesale clothes n that are really cheap..but i wasnt happy there coz sis made them wait for us n i got pissed off..a long story..

den we went causeway bay..erm it's more of lik paragon kind of place i tink..well the clothes are juz more ex..but the reason is bcoz in places lik mong kok n lai chi kok, they dun allow trying..even for jackets..but places in causeway bay they allow..so u pay more to get the privilege of tryin on...the nike adidas n billabong there are cheaper too..in conclusion i juz love hk shopping la..haha

erm den we met sis's hk fren n we went for dinner..well erm he was really nice coz he brgt us to THE PEAK!!!gosh it's so damn shit pretty can...the night scene of hk...i will upload it here la..some day..when i hav the time...my camera isnt that good la so the pics din turn out v pretty..but in anyway it's damn pretty la!!!den we went to the ferry to cross the sea..or is that considered a river??okie nvm..hee..it's those type that we always see on hk shows lor..lik soooo nice can.....coz from young hk shows had been one of my favs...n me being able to b there..
okie ya la i've been hk b4..but that was lik soo young..hee..

den we walked back to our hotel..oh btw which is kowloon hotel..in chim sha tsui..if that's how u spell it..haha..quite small ar the hotel..as in the room..n that freak receptionist!!i will always rem her...CANDY..yes that's her name..n she is NOT SWEET at all...darn...dun lik her..
hee

day 3:
well basically this day was the best day coz we got to shop the most..coz the night b4 sis talked it out with jo tat we shldnt walk together coz the clothes she wans differs from us totally...so might as well dun shop together...n so me n sis cheong 3 places in lik 11 hrs..hey it isnt alot okie...hee..bgt ALOT of things..so much that we had to make a trip back to hotel to put our things b4 cheong-ing for the nxt location..hahaha..

den at the end of the day was the tough part..coz we had to squeeze all the things into our luggage..well can la..at least we din exceed the 40kg limit..hee..i tot we will leh...hee..

day 4:
the day wher we will b leavin g for sing..woke up den went shop ard hotel coz we were supposed to wait for jo n pat for brunch, but in the end they woke up real late den tell us to go eat without them..lik after waitin for them for hr plus lor...
den we went mong kok to meet them..but they were choosing their things n we were suppoise to go buy lao po bin with them..so we wait..n wait..den sis juz got sianz so we went shop other places..n they still din call us..coz we were suppose to b at the hotel for the hotel shuttle to airport at 445..but 3 le we are still in mong kok..n we still havta go back hotel to pack the rest of the things lor...so we went to buy lao po bin ourselves..
luckily we did..coz we made it to the hotel quite early..so no need to rush lor..den in the end we reached the airport really early..so we went to rot ard..but cant really buy much things le coz we were totally broke..so broke alright....

so all in all i had a fairly good time in hk..mayb i'll rate it 7 upon 10...the 3 is bcoz of the umpteen number of quarrels with sis n sorts..hai..but i think i spent lik 700sing there...on food n expenses..not alot as compared to wat sis had spent...i followed her tihnknig..coz she said u already spent 450 on the tics n hotel accomodations le, if u still dun spend on things u lik, den u will b wasting that sum of money to go there...well quite in my budget eh..but unexpectedly, i wun b earning as much as i tot i wud so i might not b able to cover my expenses..coz i tot i was going to work for whole of august weekends..i tot i will work lik 12 hrs a day lik wat i did for pantene promoter like tat..but den nope..they only wan me for 8hrs..n wat's worse, bcoz of the dim sum play they dun wan me to work for the whole day..arrgghh...this means less n less income!!
mayb i shld go work out my MONEY again...im always revolving round money issue..but well at least im not lik somebody who even go n count out how much we spent in hk..i think that's too much..u think u wat???u are in no place to do that alright!

hmm mayb i shld save up n go with papa n mama...can go there buy things..eat..oh ya i forgot to mention bout food!!the best thing there: xu liu shan!! it's lik a dessert place..n it has really nice mango desserts!!!!!!!!!!lik WAHHHHHHHHH.....hahaha
sis said there's a franchise in sing..will go n buy..but not cheap la..if in sing i wun buy to try..but bcoz i was overseas so i tried n it's NO REGRETS!!!hee...super nice la..from wat sis told me the franchise is at the building beside lido..dunno the standard is there or ont..will go try..hee..
n ppl, if let's say u are going hong kong, n u wanna buy lao po bin, rem to buy HENG XIANG..k..dun buy rong hua...darn it..n guess wat me n sis bgt, yes it's rong hua..darn it..we tot shld b the same la..in the end...in the end......coz we bgt alot of rong hua back..n those we gave ppl oso rong hua..den in the end sis asked her fren to buy heng xiang for dad n it's freaking nice can!!!!!gosh once u start u cant stop kind of thing lor...kena cheated..so cheated..by who lets' not elaborate..darn...i havnt tried the mei xin moon cake yet..dunno nice or not..yes dun laugh yes me n sis brgt back lik 5 boxes of moon cake..noe y??coz my dear mummy wanna try...hai..we so poor thing lor..move so much thnigs here n there..hee..

did i write alot le??think i did..spentt lik 1.5hrs here le..hee..

wat else to write..guess nothing much..some things are censored...bcoz there are meant to b told face to face..god noes who reads this blog..but well im not really afraid of spoiling it..well i cant la huh..some things im juz lazy to elaborate..

oh yeah forgot to say so wat i bgt in hk..erm basically lik bout 500plus was on clothes n shoes n sorts..others were on taxi transport n food...so 500 plus was lik of 6 skirts..n erm 3 pairs of shoes..n erm 3 bags..n erm mayb 8 to 10 tops..wat else ar..erm yeah n things for my dear..bgt lik a really really nice bag for him..that i believe he loves it too coz he carried it ard even at home..hahaha..n lik 2 or 3 tops for him..den erm bag for mummy..which i think is paid by sis..haha..den erm and miscellaneous la..hahah..

good nite lo..hee..im long winded afterall...hhaha

crOwn_clOvera 8/01/2005 11:30:00 PM