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Tuesday, November 30, 2004

uh huh i typed soooo much n gone again
great

ya basically im plain bored n tired
suddenly lost all the drive n craziness i had all these days..dunno y..mayb it's e month le..argh
went yuki yaki with kok ah shi ah mei winnie xiao ying n mag today..i think this restaurant quite worth it coz has lotsa varieties n not tat ex..not bad still got ice cream some more..happy to meet them today but im juz too down n blah now to say anything..

den was to tampines mall to meet will..finally got my levi's changed..changedto 593..i like it..betta looking than 599..but it's quite low waist..ya la may c butt crack..or mayb i shld wear high underwear den wun see BC?or shld i wear it only when im need to stand no sit at all?ya la tat's it la..crap
n i sent my dear dear phone for repair..n tat will actually took my sis phone n i hav to take his lousy 6100..chey..haa

siew has job offer for me to do survey..per survey 7bucks..i wan n she wil update me lor..n winnie has weekend promoter n tuition lobangs..i wan to so waiting for her to tell me too..great n im so darn passive n sit here wait for rabbit to appear..ya la great

im juz cranky now
sian im tired
i need energy
thank god im staying at my dear dear homeeee tmr..yeah

crOwn_clOvera 11/30/2004 01:04:00 AM

Sunday, November 28, 2004

i like these phrases..

if one day u realised that i am gone
dun b sad
be happy that i was once by ur side
n i'll be happy in the other world

hahaha
sounds like im gonna commit suicide or die soon..
but no la juz like it..hee

crOwn_clOvera 11/28/2004 11:57:00 PM

but im stil happy
n everyone shld b happy
there's only one life
lead it to the fullest
dun regret
or mayb reduce ur regrets to the minimal

There's only one life
Dun be held back by uncertain thoughts
Dun let the chances pass you by
As there may never be a second chance

crOwn_clOvera 11/28/2004 10:56:00 PM

oh yeah added another thing to my bloggy
i love my bloggy
hee

yeah today's a day out with family
hmm went expo n sorts..nothing much la
haha

ytday!
hee was making curry puff in the morn..coz my dear mama suddenly had the URGE to eat it..so guai nu er will definitely help her out..
quite tasty ar..i guess it's one the best curry puffs she made..coz sometimes too spicy sometimes too bland..sometimes skin not nice..yup but this time i like it..i like sardine ones too..hee

den will came n den ya stay a while n we went out..i tot we r going shoppin..i tot we were goin cheong in the nite..but argh he bluff me..........zhu tou!
in the end i landed up at his hse n got to noe it only lik an hr b4 going..crazy..but it was quite alright at his hse..jus that they r v quiet..mayb bcoz of my presence bah..ya..coz im used to noisy n sorts..if anyone have had a meal with me n my sis or with my family will noe..coz e 2 of us v noisy..discuss wat we bgt..talk cock..play..hahaha..
well the "scary part" is over lor..stil feels weird..
weird

den we went tampines mall shop shop..yeah i bgt levi 599 at 65 bucks!!ahaha.
but nothing to b happy abt..
coz i tot my only pair of levis i wore 26 den this one i oso buy 26 w/o trying..in the end too tight coz 599 is more low waist so hip bigger so 26 cant fit!!!i am fat!!!arrggghhhh
but nvm tmr going back to change..hope n pray n wish n ar pls can change hor..haha

den we went east coast beach..i noe he got 'surprise' for me..but well wat he did was out of expectation..hee..
my Boy woke up at 9am tat morn(he nv had according to him) n twisted metal strips into our names n wrapped it w tissue..den we broke the lightsticks n cut it n use the liquid inside to dap on the tissue..hee v pretty..den he oso made a heart shape one..n he wanted to dap with alcohol n set it with fire..haha but this din succeed..dunno y la..but i think is bcoz the sand too wet so alcohol not enough bah..den i was so crazy over this tat i keep on taking pics n more pics n more pics..hahaha
nope nope im not going to load the pics here..it's only me n my boy's memories...
haha yucks so er xin

ya i was v happy ytday..n of coz the day b4..
till now im v happy tat my exams r over..but den i stil hav one more test this comin sat..n i havnt start study..haiz faster girl get into the mood..hai hai

crOwn_clOvera 11/28/2004 10:32:00 PM

uh huh i so wanna blog now..but i cant..coz im leaving hse in lik 10 mins time to go pray pray(ya again mama say pray more nvm..haha) n den going expo coz my bro's gf wanna buy mp3 player..n i think david is there..see can gimme more offer or not..haha..

ytday was great..though i was super tired coz i woke up at 8am ytday slept only 4hrs..den last nite slp at lik 3 plus..but i woke up at 12 juz now la so okie.haha..
okie ltr den update bout ytday..

kok:u juz go www.blogskins.com hor den u choose the format u wan..u dun need to like e background pics..juz as long the color and page format u like can le..den aft tat u get the html den u type the words u like..like my heading is __fly by__ oso took other's den change into my own words..den pics juz load into any server den copy n paste the webby can le..kok u now how to put pic rite?i saw a pic on ur blog..hee..anyway u JIA YOU for ya exams!!!aft exams we can talk more bout this..hee..

ying:i noe u wan us to leave u alone..but whenever u need us u juz call us k..talk cock oso can..mayb we can go shopping again nxt wk together..ya?n wen too rite?hee SHOPPIN RULEZ!but i bgt a levi's jeans on offer ytday but a lil too small..i think i needa go on diet to look betta in this pair of jeans..this way of doing in pysc is call COGNITIVE DISSONANCE..lalala ah shi noe this rite?hahahaha

crOwn_clOvera 11/28/2004 01:32:00 PM

Saturday, November 27, 2004

pic taken in redang!haha im not tat gd in taking pics..it's taken by my sista..nice?i think i will change pics regularly..since im so free..argh i m not really free coz gotta study for advanced theory..tips anyone??
hee

crOwn_clOvera 11/27/2004 10:33:00 AM

finally..time check: 330am..my brain is falling n my brain is darn heavy..i dun like the tag board la..the purple so ugly..but i did it in 2 hrs..good..shld find prettier pics..
n i realised my prev one is damnnnn long..
wahhaa

crOwn_clOvera 11/27/2004 03:27:00 AM

Friday, November 26, 2004

la la la la la la la la la la la la~~~~~~~

can any, i mean ANY, single soul feeeel my happppyyyness??okie it's happiiiness??
woOooOoooHooooOooOooo~~~~~

this exams is juz a pure drag for me..coz i tot i need alot of time to prepare for it so i started preparing for the exams lik 2 3 weeks b4..n pertually spending 9/10 of my time on psyc...it paid off la but not totally..the paper today wasnt a real big killer like stats(damn it)..i could understand all the mcq qns n most of the essay qns unlike the situation in my first psyc test(in case u cant rem, i got 38/100 for tat 1st test)..

BUT!!i got 68 for my second...so progressively i will get 98 for my third, which is today's test?wahaha siao if i can get tat i will jump off the building..wat building leh??hmm any la..erm model building of pan pac?haha okie not funny..

erm erm i will really really write alot tonight..must must..comon dun blame me..i havnt been doing my Dear blogging sooo darn long..i shld b given the privilege to write damn shit lot rite..i even told my dear boy i cant talk to him tonight coz i wanna BLOG..wahahaha..but we r meeting tmr so nvm la..i was so desperate to blog every time during this exam period that i had to type it out as a sms n save it in my phone..some an go up to 6 pages?okie not v long comparedto wat im gonna write now..!! lalala

where to start?i have no darn idea.(i like the word darn now hee)
okie let's start from today...freshest memories n HaPpY memories!!lalala..haha
went our with my 2 dears today..okie one is my beelopbird..haha..we were suppose to meet at bugis starbuckie today at 12pm la..i RUsH down str aft my paper lor..n wat?????i was made waited for 45 mins...tat's like wat?3/4 of an hr and 2700secs!!!u 2!!!tat ah wen still say "oh got traffic jam" eh u think bluff primary sch tcher ar??haha no la i had fun time today..
hmm okie cut e crapp...we went bugis shop..most significant one was we spent lik 2 3 hrs at bugis seiyu??haha coz we were looking at bras(not we, it's ah wen..looking for *toot* bra haha) and we saw sale at surf paradise n we were really like at paradise ar..oh paradise-in-making talking bout paradise!
haha

den well we helped the economy to grow today by alot..
happy things:
2 tops (1 damn nice polo tee *slurp!*)
1 surf berms
1 OP bag!!
in case ah wen dunno..me n ying went back to seiyu aft u leave n we bought more stuff!or is it me only?oh no no i bought the OP bag n ah ying got a bnn top..nice nice..hee
so i helped the economy grow by ard 90bucks today..ying i think hmm ard 70?hee...n tat ah wen who say she wanna go on shOppin sPreEee din spend much...some things juz spend..dun think so much..coz it might not b available when u really wan it..n plus..u juz ask urself is it worth it n do u need it? if both qns r yes den y hesitate? okie ying gonna say im bad company..haha aiya bcoz im si4 hui4 dang3 mah...wahahaha leng siao hua~~~

den sis called say she's at gloria shop so we met up n have dinner courtesy of Mr Si Liang, aka sista BF..haha treated us to aijisen..ah wen c la..go meet li ling den no free treat...hahaha no la no la...
okie that's abt today..n it's alot alreasdy..cham i think i will write til like 1 am..haha

thru out this exam period..ALoT of my frens broke up...well juz a few only..but fren's frens too..n it can amt to alot..haiz i oso dunno y..perhaps we shld term NOvember as Breaking-Up season..so ppl betta dun get attach b4 this season..or mayb we shld term this season as Pre-winter syndrome?coz ppl getting colder bcoz of the season so they oso got colder with the others?okie misattribution of emotions..hahah in case u dunno..im rectiing psyc terms..lalala i LOvE psyc..!!
well this does not mean that im in singlehood..still with my boy..haha..going out with him tmr..~~~ **U betta hav nice n perfect plan or else u noe wat will happen** wahaha

for those who r facing any probs juz call me or any thing k??one impt thing is not to coop up..it's not healthy..coz it will lead to stress...and according to Hans Selye, this is called the General Adaptation Syndrome and it is noT healthy..wanna noe wat this theory asserts?look up urself..woohoo i love psyc
haha

wat else..hmm i think my mama is good..as in it's really nice to talk to her...oh oh latest news!!
MY DEAR DEAR BROTHER GOT FIRST CLASS HONORS IN CHEM ENGIN IN AUST!!
im so darn proud of him..im not trying to boast k in case u think i am doing that..i juz felt so happy n elated n warm n everything for him..he had tried sooo very hard and it did paid off..so ppl trying hard n studying hard WILL pay off..hee..he's coming back real soon..yeah...hmm think again i miss my bro man..ya...sob sob feel lik crying..he's been a great bro
really

yup back to mama topic..we talked alot thru out this prepare for exams period..well basically she will try to "dig" more info abt will...haha curious i guess..i learnt more things from mama..well like seeing how papa n mama maintain their marriage..anyone really wondered how can 2 persons be together for soo very long and yet not tired of each other n still love each other deeply?i pondered bout this even more after hearing so much breakups n sorts..how can they maintain their marriage so well..

lemme site an example..daddy opened office door n said "tamade that guy raised his voice at me coz we din get the spareparts for me.it's tat ah chew who did not do his job!"aiya sth like tat la and den mama replied with agreeing tone n sorta scolded ah chew n the lorry owner, of coz behind their backs la..den dad closed the door n went back to work again..seems nothing?well c in this way..they maintained their marriage by telling each other everything every frustration and every happiness..it’s by sharing..

or when it comes to decision making like wat to cook for tmr?or shld we go out to eat?all these mama will discuss with papa..even though sometimes or most of the times mama already had something in mind she will still ask n den she will suggest wat she tot and den a conclusion..it has bcome such a habit for them that seems so normal but yet crucial..discussing abt small issues can let them talk abt other things like bitching abt how darn n shit n lousy n incompetent n free load n all sorts ah chew is(btw, ah chew is my uncle cum dad’s worker, but he suck BiG time coz he noe dad wun sack him n he does nothing n earns 3k a month.piece of shit) so they will bitch abt him but so wat?they will have more common topics to talk abt..it’s abt the common points that they talk abt..

how miraculous couples can be together for so long..it’s juz seems like a WAHHH thing for me..my sis n her bf juz passed their one yr n bro n jeanie been together for more than a yr le..things r juz so WAHHH

den I talked to mama that day..dunno these days juz talking n crapping with mama is soo nice..she told me..being together is you have to understand the other party and have to learn to discuss with each other..true..but it’s so hard to attain that stage..coz im more of a willful n self centered person who deicdes on her own..gotta learn bah..n when mama told me this..somehow I saw the sweetness in her..yup still vividly in my mind even though it is like at least 2 3 days ago..

it’s juz the sweetness in couples tat made me feel so warm in my heart..tat day (while preparing for exams hee) I was watching star style..this show that features Jennifer Aniston on that episode..den they talked abt her dress sense n sorts..n there were a lot of scenes where she appeared with brad pitt..i wasn’t looking at how charming they were(not totally la) but how brad pitt held her hand..really..try sitting down in some crowded area n see the couples that walk by..it seems that how loving they are can be shown in how they hold their hands? My boy said playing n soothing of partner’s hand is a way of showing affection..i believe it’s true..it’s juz how brad pitt changed his ways of holding jen’s hand..sometimes interlock..sometimes juz clinging on..sometimes ard her waist..sometimes locking little finger..just a small gesture seems to reveal a lot..

**im thankful I found ur hands too..coz it’s really cosy in the heart..but tmr’s day u still have to plan out well or else u noe wat will happen!!** wahaha

wat else..hmm..
ohh ohh!!i dressed up as a SIA airstewardess for my comms project that day..gosh it’s juz so much things to update..yup..i think I will put a mini pic in..hee..nice experience..made me ponder shld I be an air stewardess in the future too..coz it’s sooo cooolll.. ya lor..but dunno la..great experience..n attractive pay..n gets to fly ard..but I needa get rid of the scar on my hand first or else cannot get thru..haha

okie im at 4 page of a word document le..ALOT!haha

oh ya..im really thankful for all those factors that eventually din make me successful in changing course..coz I loe psyc now..it’s juz how much u can learn abt this subject n this area of knowledge that’s astonishing, actualizing, fulfilling and all man..u learn so much in such a short time that u will be happier for the rest of ur life coz u learn things from another perspective and WAHH haha
this subject had made me fuller as a person..enlightened me, brightened up my life, gave me a fresh new outlook towards life, changed certain perceptions of mine..LOVELY
gaining insight of oneself n others is a wonderful incredible indescrible feeling unless u experience it urself..
gosh I love psyc

time just flies thru out this 3 mths in uni..how life had been not hectic n hectic..angry and sweet..sleepy and lively..hungry n fulfilling..learning n more learning..great I love SMU
haha

in proj:perhaps is just how u learn to deal with ppl..i was more of a slacker in the beginning coz I juz dun wanna help out..heng my prof did not take into account for peer evaluation or else I die..haha..n den it’s how to manage ur emotions n face everyone with a J face and not to show ur “black face”..i lost my temper once at proj meeting n tat wasn’t n good way of managing my emotions coz I shld displace it or even repress it for a ltr time coz projs are a very realistic thing..in the not so nice way u gotta say that u have to get into good books of ppl and ta da u have good life..

but of coz there are grps tat are fun..my comms grp was fun..juz fooling ard with the SIA uniform was fun enough..coz the uniform was a little too big for all of us..especially the boobs part..coz in case u guys dunno..SIA air stewardesses have to wear thick, n I mean THICK padding so of coz I cant n none of us hav so big boobs..vanessa even joked we could put oranges in n when we serve prof we could ask prof do u wan orange juice?hahahaha..well dun ask me how I made my boobs big enough to fill the top..not anything nice..haha

in pysc:great just a little sad coz I din made the effort to make friends in the class n thus not really can talk to anyone in there..well nvm..i will try harder for nxt term..gotta learn to approach ppl..coz im scared..hee scardey cat mah…

stats: sucks
one word sucks
coz I hate the prof
haha but I see no point in learning this..we have softwares to use in the future tat will do everything for us..well u may say we needa learn the basics behind it..but crap it..who will rem the technics 4 yrs down the road?siao

oh ya I got lotsa after-exams-resolutions haha:
-take my advanced theory n MUST pass it darn
-repair my hp..haiz..technology juz doesn’t last..i wanna buy new phone..someone pls be kind enough to spare my some some cash..im poor
-which leads to getting a job to earn money..if I go out shopping spree everyday like today I can go bang wall liao..so I tot of getting tuition..any recommendations anyone?pls tel me!!
-get new contact lens n specs..specs sucks..so ugly.. n my lens 2.5 yrs old liao..if I dun change I will bcome blind..oh no oh no..but no worries sis juz gave me money..hee..i love my sista
-of coz, duh, play hard
-get novels to read and also read my AS,SOCPSYC,SOCIO textbooks..muz get them first of coz..aiya get from who la..arrrggghhh….
-do comm service work(to clock hours la I so guai meh)
- cut hair!!ya la hair so long n unkempt liao..mayb dye too..color so obvious..CHOU
-REVAMP MY DEAR BLOG!!oh ya la!!blog so chou..argh..yup I will find a skin that fits my bloggy name..paradise!
-apply a campus card!yup yup not enough cards..campus juz have so much offers that I simply cant resist..woohoo..haha

like tat only lor..n I needa get shoes man..tot I cld get in Thailand but cant go bcoz of all those darn riots..haiz..n a new bottle..old bottle the black black head peeling off lor!i dunno drink how much plastic down liao..haiz haiz..n get Christmas prez..for like abt 10 ppl??n all are my dears lor..cham cham no money..i go bcome prostitute la den can earn money fastest.hahaha but I think those se pei pei will vomit and in the end I havta pay their medical bills..hmm betta not I lose out in the end leh..hahahaha
n 3 quads?but I juz got a surf berms..mayb this can wait..there are juz so much things to buy..n all needs wat??wat is their common point?needs MONEY..haiz haiz..n bags too..n this n tat..im BROKE..duan diao le..wahaha..

okie current record 5 pages of word..great im wordy n naggy..but pardon me coz Im consolidating 3 wks of exasperation..hahaha

well well..time check..130am..YAwNzzzz...
i lik my blog..haha guess i shld help it change skin..orange skin?snake skin?uhh not funny

crOwn_clOvera 11/26/2004 11:26:00 PM

Friday, November 05, 2004

to all who r taking exams or going to take or on the verge of dying from studying or those who r so excited over exams or those who dunno what liao:::

ALL THE BEST LO!!WORK HARD!!JUZ A FEW MORE WEEKS!! (WELL APPARENTLY JUZ 2WKS FOR NTU ONLY)
BUT NUS N SMU ONES WE WILL DO IT!! WOOHOO!! JIA YOU!!

MUG!!

STUDY HARD!!

STUDY SMART!!

DEN: PLAY HARD!!

:D

crOwn_clOvera 11/05/2004 02:01:00 PM