Sunday, April 22, 2007
These days I'm just too lazy to blog. Have been lazing around these few days, not doing anything constructive. But I do know one thing: a person cannot be without any goals. In the past either exam goals or some aims to find a job or what during holidays. But then this week was plain rotting. Really lousy feeling. I was so so so unhappy past few days, such miserable feelings.
Oh well, that aside, I'm starting summer term soon! Yawn....... Two courses, four weeks. Then it'll be HOKKAIDO!! WOOO HOOOO!!!
Oh yeah, last week was in Hong Kong. Shopped quite a bit, but not alot. Not comparable to Australia and the last hong kong trip. Hahaha. But it was great, especially the desserts!!! GOSH. LOOOOVVVEEE it!
First day: We woke up real early to catch the flight at 640am. Budget Airlines. You get what you pay --> my tagline when I was in HK. HAHA.
I was quite tired and 'high' as you can see 'cause I didn't sleep that whole night. I thought I had to wake up at 330 and leave hse at 415, so might as well not sleep. This explains my weird smile. HAHA.
We went str to get stocks when we reached. Then, we went Langham Place for dinner. It has escalators going from 4th-8th flr, then 8th-12th flr.
When we reached 12th flr, we went to this glass stairs to go up to 13th flr. It was so bloody scary that I couldn't even stand str!! My legs were so wobbly that we didn't even dare to stand there to take pics. hahaha. I dunno if you could see clearly, but this pic was taken on the 13th flr. Hmm the pic is a little blur right? Must be because of my wobbly legs. haha.
Here's what HK is famous for: the roads filled with brightly lited signboards. hehe. 
Took this on our way to airport on the second day to fetch Pa, Ma. 
After meeting mum and dad, we went to Ngong Ping to take the cable car up to a temple that's in the hills. The cable car ride took 15mins, quite cool. 'Cause we crossed the sea, hills, valleys and sorts. 
Look how high up we were!
After walking for really long.. We finally reached the temple. 
Yes yes yes, daddy was this tired 'cause HK trip was 60% shopping. hahaha. And yes yes yes, Sis was this happpy. HAHA. This picture depicts our HK trip. How nice. :) 
This is how high the buddha statue was placed. It seems to be in the clouds eh! 
Another pic of HK roads. The salesman on the right of the pic must be really bored. haha. 
Mummy is happy that she appeared small. =D 
Oh this is the most expensive condo in HK. It faces The Peak, the harbor, the business district (Zhong Huan, Shang Huan) and located at Kowloon. We were on the cab and the driver told us that the most expensive unit was 150m HKD. so it's 30m SGD. I don't know the accuracy of the facts given, but well, let's take it at face value. SO EXPENSIVE!!!! SIAO LA!!!!!!! hahahaah. I couldn't get down the cab so I couldn't take the view of the scenary from the condo. 
Yup that's all.
I just got back my Psyc results. The same old grade. Time and again I'm affected by it no matter how prepared I am. I really did try hard for this subject. For these psyc subjects. But my incapability to memorise the cold hard facts is reflected in my grades time and again. Sometimes I think if I hadn't taken psyc at all, just a business major, I might get second lower at least you know. Or even better.
Really, don't make big mistakes. I have so many in my life.
But I've always been telling myself it's ok, 'cause there are lessons learnt and human need to learn from mistakes. But the part of the greener grass on the other side really, hurts.
Then I will find reasons to explain why. And it always boils down to my stubbornness. Refusing to take heed from the others. Rebellious that time. Serve me right.
Then again I have been in this blaming myself thing for so damn long that my self-esteem is going down like nobody's business.
And so I've decided not to think that way. But again, mistakes will occur when you can't judge.
Was I overprotected in the past that I couldn't really learn?
And there's something else. Something happened today that made me realise this. You know, I will always cry when I know a quarrel is impeding. Of course, a quarrel that involves me. No matter how hard I try to fight the tears back, it doesn't work. And I was thinking why. I finally realise. 'Cause when I was young, as long as I cry, I will win. Time and again this behavior is reinforced. This is known as conditional behavior. Some psychology theory. It's just that when there are positive rewards (winning) after doing something, the behavior will be reinforced. Just like how you train animals. So I was so called trained to cry when something bad is going to happen, perhaps subconsciously I thought I will be able to 'win' if I cry. Don't know if my deductions are correct or not. But it does seem so. Well this is the main plus point of psychology as you can really understand yourself SOO much better. But again, the main minus point is, psychology at this level doesn't teach you how to cure it! Or even change it or alleviate it. HAHA. So how? I know it yet nothing can be done? ahhhhh i'm procrastinating again. AGAIN. AAAGGGAIN!
But my deductions is right, right?
crOwn_clOvera 4/22/2007 09:20:00 PM
