The Carousels

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Since when did my family become so un-happy? I miss those times when we had so much fun together, and even if there's any quarrels, we will be just fine in hours' time. Perhaps I should stop reminiscing the past and think what will happen in the future.

Everyone's out now. How funny. A houshold of 6 needs 3 cars. And daddy's gonna source for a new car. I don't know the rationale behind his want to get a new car, what I do know is there's something deeper than wanting to change a new car for sis and me. Yup I would trust so.

Sometimes I wonder is it correct for me to think that badly about her. We were so close. But talking to william about the whole issue looking in plane view, I cannot not trust my instinct. Why she has to do all those? She didn't do it on purpose, right?
If I was a little more open to everyone it would have been better. Communication really bridges bond between people. But it seems as though I've learnt this precious lesson too late. Perhaps it was since I went out to work, I start to grow this defence around myself. And vicious cycle kicks in when my temper goes out of control.

Don't you always wish life could be slightly more simple? Fretting over the slightest issue makes me grow so old, and sad.

What lies in your future? I can't see mine though. After going through fifteen years of schooling I can't even solve this simple problem. Then what is the point of going schooling anyway when you can't even see what lies ahead? Isn't all these years of schooling Suppose to PREP us for the future? If such idea of schooling isn't entirely accurate, then should we stop schooling?
Argh, what about schooling. Com'on, I have barely two years left, stop complaining.
But I am dare sure is I will never miss studying times. At least not those in SMU. Perhaps PJ. But studying was fun that time because everyone's so "naive".

Daddy had an op that day. Restitching to be short. Though the story is much longer. Episodes happened again. I had hope I could change for the better. My notorious temper. Do you think I want to flare up at everyone? Do you think I want to make others sad? Scolding me to stop doing it and preaching 'bout it ain't gonna help.

Why do you have to be such a bitch. Why? We were so close. were.

crOwn_clOvera 10/15/2006 12:54:00 PM

The Craze

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I LoooVe
SHOPPING!
MONEY!!
carousels :O
chocs (lindt creme brulee!)
sashimi (tuna belly)
Bakerzin
dancing
ktv
travelling
horses!
be a couch potato
my family
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~ Go Japan, Britain, Taiwan, HK
~ more n more money!!!!
~ job
~ carousel

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WisH list*~
# have ALOT of money
# straight teeth :X
# tour
# forever shopping
# happiness
# Japanese

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