Monday, October 09, 2006
I have this intense desire to write this entry.
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From this day onwards, I promise I will not step into any part of town in specs! This is what happened. I thought going out with gor n jeanee this afternoon was just lunch and going school to hand in my assignment and I would go home. How would I know. How would I know.. that I had to (actually I wanted to) go shopping with them. And while I was in school I was already very paiseh. I wore ugly pink tee with skirt and slippers. and a slingback bag. Yes very ugly. And I had to meet 3 (THREE) persons I know. WHY. It was still OKIE. And so we went shopping at Taka. And we went Forever 21. I was so DEmoralized. I saw Pearline there and I tried to hide so that she wouldn't see me. Of 'course, everyone with weeny brain will know she can see me. And yes this is how it went :
(I saw her walking out from fitting room, I tried to hide away. Before I could, she saw me. WHAt else can I DO?)
Me: OHH Hi!
P: (erm..) Hi... Ohhhh...
(and her silence went on for wholy shit TEN seconds which appeared 10mins for me)
Me: HAHA don't be so shocked! HAHA. (I tried hard to laugh, "haha")
P: Ohh U..u..three years?
Me: No lah, 4. U leh? what sch?
P: Oh 3. In SIM lor. Haha.
Me: oHH okie. C u ard ah!
That was it.
It killed me. If my self-esteem was rated from scale of 0 to 10. At that moment, it must have been -10^100. Seriously. And the Critcal part was my PIMPLE. YEs it's so BIG. It's right under my nose, with pus pushing their way out of my skin. And the deadly part was the 10sec when she held her breath. She must have thought: OH my GODDDD, how did she get so ugly! All kind of thoughts that could kill my self-esteem ran through my mind. I had NO mood to shop at all after that. NONE. And I went to tell Jeanee she told me to just get clothes to try. I went and it did help a bit. But still, the rating is still at least -10. I saw this dress I like. But to buy it is still not me. I would rather go far east or bugis. Until I have THAT disposable income than I will shop till I drop!
And so, I promise, I will not step into town with specs. with ugly clothes. At least if i were in neighborhood areas in ugly clothes I could explain 'cause I was down to get some things only, going back home soon kind of stuff. You know?
Ahhh it's just too traumatizing. Gor thinks I'm crazy. Indeed I am.
On a happier note, I got surprised today! HAHA. And I got the albums I prayed for. Aiya, cannot pray for things anyhow. HEHE. Thanks dear! hehe :P
Ying dear.. I havn't email you yet..Scold me lah! Hai I will do it real soon. Meanwhile you gotta take good care of yourself and update your blogs! hehe *hugs*
crOwn_clOvera 10/09/2006 07:40:00 PM
