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Friday, June 02, 2006

why muz u always compare?
sis juz vacuumed the flr and wat, washed the clothes today and there you go
"you ar, stay at hm also NEVER do any chores for me"
"you ar, see sis, stay at hm one day only help me vacuum and wash clothes"
"you ar, stay at hm for so long only washed the clothes ONCE only"

fucking hell
i was so bloody angry by this
firstly, so i had Only washed the clothes ONCE, jus ONCE isnt it?
and i had NEVER done any bloody chores
fuck
sis juz did ONCE, jus so bloody ONCE of vacuumin the flr
and there you go telling me how bad i am, how i did not do anything, how i shld do and fucking bloody hell
fuck you
so you are trying to compare now is it?
then fine, so i have been helping you umpteen times to make your FAVOURITE curry puff, dumplings, bao, ang ku kueh, cny goodies, mooncake and the list goes on
FROM young alright
have you ever complained to sis that she shld be LIKE ME? she shld learn how to do all those, learn how to make, learn how to cook, and not go out shopping while we are making those.
NO
i bloody hell do not need you to acknowledge whatever i've done, but i neither need you compare
from the day i knew im in this world, you have been comparing both of us
do you fucking noe how hard it is not to think bout it?
im ALWAYS THE WEAKER ONE
ALWAYS
relatives said im the weaker one, you have never helped out. you only added to it
sis is always the cleverer one, sis is always this and always that
and when i finally got to the level of sis's standards, of YOUR STANDARD
i was numbed
so numbed
i couldnt even feel happy for my results anymore coz it did not mean anything anymore

i jus hate to be compared
compared for such small things
that made me even more angry
yes i agree i did not help out in that bloody vacuuming
but i did others like using that darn magic-clean
so where was the complaining to sis?

so all boils down to the issue that I SHOULD NOT HAVE STAYED AT HM
i shld hav went out
not staying at hm everyday

and then you got angry at me for saying all these
told you theseand you said im pushing all the chores to you and again, reiterating your point of I-DID-NOT-DO-ANYTHING-TO-HELP
thank you
so thank you very much

crOwn_clOvera 6/02/2006 09:46:00 PM

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